Alright. Alright. I honestly have no idea why I am blogging about this, but it's currently 12:41am on a Monday morning, and I just got home from spending three hours on top of a roof watching a meteor "shower."
First things first. An immediate question you may have is, "why did you put 'shower' in quotations?" The answer is simple. I went into this adventure to the rooftop with unrealistic expectations. I thought I was going to see something along the lines of those photoshopped pictures and fantasies where the entire sky is lit up with meteorites burning through the earth's atmosphere. While there were several cool ones, it was very underwhelming simply because of what I thought it would have been. I guess I should have used my brain to think that it would be more like what it turned out to be. And another thing that attributed to the disappointment was that we weren't up there during the peak hours - at 5am, apparently.
VBS is happening this week. I had to really force myself to accept that even though I don't understand people not signing up for it, they will show up. It is one thing to have 20 or 30 kids sign up prior, and then have the 15 to 20 last minute sign ups that do it the day before or the day of the start of camps; and it is another to just not have anyone officially register, but have plans to come attend. It was so hard for me, during the week, to try to prepare something that I had a difficult time believing that it would happen. As a result, I'm a bit behind in some of the prep work. It's almost like trying to run a business, knowing that you will be closing down in a month, but you still have to do it and sell your product like you're going to keep running. I was told that this is a small town thing. Though, I don't really think that it's necessarily like this all the time because at least a few people were surprised that no one had signed up a week before camp. So I guess it's just a new experience for me again. I did feel like God was telling me, on a few occasions, that even though no one had signed up yet, to have faith in him. And since I am someone that lacks faith, I didn't take this well. I'm not sure what this week will look like, but I know for sure that it will help me in the future. One of the toughest things for a pastor is to work so hard for so long, but seemingly see no results and no growth or nothing coming to fruition. It's the same concept, except with mine on a much smaller scale.
Finally, I have had the pleasure of meeting even more people in the last little while. From guest speakers, to people who are just stopping by, to old visitors who used to be part of the church, etc., tons of people who I've gotten the chance to see. So when I said I have no idea why I'm blogging this, I meant specifically this part. Haha. When first meeting several people, on top of the general things that people usually tell others about, I'm also being asked if I'm single or in a relationship. I usually say that I'm single, kind of brushing it off saying that I haven't really put in much time and effort into looking for a SO, and for whatever reason they kind of give me a sense that they are surprised. It's true that I don't really put a whole lot of effort or actively try to search for a girlfriend, but I'd be lying if I said it's never on my mind. Of course it is. I'm a dude, it's what we do. But I haven't really made an effort to explore this area of my life, I guess I can say. So I am wondering if it is time that I start doing that.
I don't really know, though. It seems so lame for me to be thinking, "okay! Let's begin to search for a girlfriend!" That just feels really weird to me. So, even thinking and blogging about it is kind of embarrassing. LOL. Oh well, if I meet a girl that really blows me away, then I'll look deeper into it. Off the top of my head, I can only think of one girl that I've met in the last couple years that is anywhere near that category. But like I said, I really don't put much thought into it.
Cya nerds.
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