Winter For Champs

I know nobody really cares, but I've been wearing flip flops for much of the last couple weeks. If that doesn't sound too weird, it is currently the middle of winter - February.

This winter, I have pulled out my winter jacket twice. The first time was to play ice hockey. The other time was the random cold day (below -20), and I needed to go get groceries.

Over the last several days, I have also been playing ultimate frisbee outside in the courtyard. Strangely enough, a lot of people like to play in the dark so we can't see the frisbee at all. But that's why it's so fun.

It has also been warm enough that I've set the thermostat in my room to 15 degrees. A normal winter would probably have me want to make sure it was at least 20 in the house.

This is a winter for champs.

In other news, I don't think there's a whole lot of "new" to talk about. This term has been, and will continue to be, rather busy. Tomorrow, I'll finally be able to give my first speech in my public speaking class. It was supposed to be last week, but we ran out of time; so I had to be nervous for another week.

Church has been fun, I guess. There's a Valentines Day thing coming up this Friday and I'll be involved with that. Personally, I think Valentines Day is really dumb and degrading for the people who are single. Singles-awareness Day is about the best way to describe it, because that's what it really is.

Hmm, what else can I write? I guess a little more about my spiritual health is okay. During my fight with God, there was a period of a week or two where I seriously considered giving up my vocation, my faith. The funny thing about that was how, based on my experience, I knew exactly how things were and are supposed to play out. That was the main reason for why I wanted to quit. I found it really stupid, and still do a little, about how things have to work the ways that they do. I hated how inferior we are. And I'm also going to admit that I called God a selfish God for having everything need to point to him. What that means is that all of the "all glory to God" or "every breath I take is because of and for God" type of stuff is all God-centered and needed to be. The whole idea of "we're helpless unless we have God" made me call God an attention whore.

That's not even the worst parts of my fight.

But as hindsight has it, I do take a lot of the blame for being stupid and narrow-minded. It's now motivating me to try to really focus on my attitude. I took my generally positive demeanor for granted for a lot of my life, and so I guess I just want to be able to restart the way I go about it - not being happy for the sake of being happy, but having the reason to do it I guess.

So, where I stand now, I'm still not happy with the way God does things, but I'm more accepting of it. I'm just going to keep going and see where I end up.

Wow, this post ended up much longer than I had originally planned! Haha!