Serenity

My blog has been dead for quite a while. I looked over my last several posts and I don't really know what I'm talking about in any of them.

Nonetheless, I've been spending this past week at home, in Edmonton, for reading week. It is such a contrast to the environment to what I get at school where it is busy and noisy all day long. So when I come back home and experience the peace and quiet that I love so much, I kind of get lost in it.

I know that when I'm in Calgary, I talk and hype up so much about how when I get back to Edmonton, I'm going to do this and do that, but I think the truth is that I just want to be back to get away from the business of life that is on residence and at school. And when I finally am back, I realize that I don't REALLY want to do all that stuff - well, yes I do - but rather take that time to use the quieter and more peaceful times that I really don't get anymore.

That's the strange thing about being on the fence of an introvert and an extrovert. I'm so close in between that I can get so hyped up being around people, up until I forget what it's like to have that solitude and calmness, and then go back to having that stillness of being at home or whatever and just basking in all of its glory.

Anyways, that's what I've been doing all week: "me time." I always tell myself that I need to be more social, but the amount that I am setting myself up for is not me at all, which is why it's so hard; and if I try, I'd be way out of character, and therefore make me fake.

So, yeah. I apologize to those that I didn't get to hang out with or see this week because I really wanted to, but I just really need the quiet and alone times that I don't get anymore. I think even the most extroverted people need quiet and alone time, especially ones that are in my situation with living in residence. I guess you can say that I've been using this week to recharge... by playing Final Fantasy XIII-2.

With just a couple days left of my break, I probably need to get a ton of work done for next week of school. I also hope to goodness that the snow isn't so bad this weekend so I can drive back down to Calgary safely and peacefully. I really don't like driving alone on the highway because I get so bored and start dreaming. So with the snow, it could be bad; but I'm hoping that it won't be.

Finally, I guess I hope that everyone has had a good week. My life isn't that exciting so I don't blame the lack of activity on my blog on myself or anyone.

One last thing, it's closing in on a year now that a family member was killed in a car accident. There seemed to be a bit of resolve in the case, but I know the family will be thinking of her in the next several days. So I pray that God comforts everyone.