The only reason I am not back in Calgary right now is because of the weather. It is strange how when traveling, you need to keep track of the weather in two different places. I know right?! Anyways, the weather seemed to be pretty good in Calgary yesterday, but not so good in Edmonton. And today, it flipped.
It is a bit inconvenient for me to have to wait an extra day before going back to Calgary, but this is pretty much what happened last year too. Of course, last year was a different circumstance. To be honest though, I think if my professor didn't reply to the email I sent her on Saturday, I'd have driven down today. I have a speech for class tomorrow at 1:00pm, but thankfully my prof was nice enough to tell me that if I really had to miss the class, it would be okay! So, as I prepare to drive back down to Calgary tomorrow, I guess I will be forced to miss pretty much all of my double block public speaking class. I also miss most of trade deadline day, which is kind of sad; but having the feeling that this trade deadline will be a quiet one, I am hoping even more for it to be quiet now.
Hopefully the roads will be good tomorrow so I can have a safe and smooth drive back to (F)lames' town!
It was a brutal reading week in terms of productivity. I brought everything home, and woke up every single day (literally) telling myself that I'd work today. And at the end of it, it is pretty standard that I did absolutely nothing other than play Final Fantasy 13-2.
I also have to confess that I have come to the conclusion that I have been more homesick than ever this year. I don't think that there was any period of time last year where I really wanted to go home. This year though, it's hit me like a brick wall. Maybe I just haven't been comfortable, but everything I've longed for or dreamed of pointed back to Edmonton where I am comfortable. Each time that I had to leave Edmonton to go back, I have felt a huge sense of resentment. A big reason is that I hate long distance driving, especially by myself; but I just don't think I've really gotten comfortable anywhere in Calgary this year. In other words, I haven't really had the chance to be myself without having some sort of barrier being up.
Anyways, I can't do anything about it. And as I go back down tomorrow, it will be for the home stretch of two more months to truck along before my second year of Bible college finishes. And even though I hate job hunting, this year has been tough enough for me to rather be looking for a job right now instead of being in school. Something that I've also started to notice is how people, especially when they get closer to graduating from university, start to "run out" of schooling. Pretty much, it means that there's just no desire left to be in school; a change of scenery is needed to be in the work field.
So, yeah. I think I've decided that I'm going to stay in Edmonton this summer. There's just way too much I'd rather be at home for than in Vancouver.
Good luck to everyone with school! You're almost done another year!
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