In Limbo

Ummm, what?

Where did all the time go?

I'm literally sitting here in my bed, confused as... You fill in the blank. This winter break is coming to a close and I have to drive back down to Calgary on Monday. I'm disoriented to the point where I don't even know how exactly I can put all my thoughts into words.

Let me try to put it differently. People have started asking me about school again and my mom has started to get things for me to bring down to Calgary. I had no response or reaction to either of those questions because it hasn't even hit me that I am just a couple days from going back to school.

Bummer.

I think the good thing about this is that it means my break was a success, the way I wanted it to go. On the other hand, the bad thing is that I have become so oblivious to time. Being at home has made me so care free and so worry free that I don't even remember that I need to go back to Calgary.

Thinking about it, I don't think I've really told many people outside of my family and some of my closest friends, but there were times this past semester where I felt like I was trapped in prison. Don't get me wrong about living in residence, because it's really fun, but it honestly felt that way quite a few days because everything you see is the same everyday.

And now that I'm just a couple days from being forced to drive back down and ready myself for the winter semester, I find myself facing the same issues that I always do before a new semester hits. There are adjustments to my courses that need to be made, I need to find a list of textbooks that I need to buy, I need to find a way to somehow get enough money for school, etc.

But because I've been so distracted, and rightfully so, I have completely lost track of the "real world" and whatever it is. I'd like to stay right where I am now, please and thank you. Life sucked before I came back to Edmonton for Christmas, and I don't want to go back to that.

Welp, time to suck it up again - like I always do - and start thinking about going to school again.

I haven't even checked my marks from fall term yet.

Can I stay in limbo, please?