Why, Hello There

In the case that you don't know about my YouTube channel, I have one. I have also uploaded a new video that I threw together in an extremely quick fashion. I believe the final product was the 3rd time I played the song. The first time, I just played it; the second time I recorded, but did not like; and recorded it one more time, it being what you hear. Here it is: Have Mercy (Everything We Need) - Gord Johnson.

Lately, I have been completely enamored with the MacBook Pro. Everything about it has just made me marvel the computer and I have wanted to go out to purchase it on about a million different occasions. Well, I can't really say lately; I've wanted a Mac for years now. I was kind of hoping that after I graduated high school, my dad would buy one for me. But instead, I got this little guy that I am currently blogging with. There is nothing wrong with my HP laptop, but I can't play StarCraft on it. Add to the fact that pretty much everyone in my school has a Macbook Pro, it makes me insanely envious. God is testing me, even right in the midst of all this "Christian community" stuff. Agh! I've also been following very closely on the 2011 update for the MBP. No one knows when Apple is going to update the computer to the next version, but I am dying here trying to wait. I've spent many nights contemplating whether or not I should just buy the 2010 version and know what I'm getting rather than wait for the new one, potentially risking some StarCraft performance. But nevertheless, I am going to be buying a Macbook pro this year. Most likely, I will get it shortly after the 2011 version comes out. I know some people aren't exactly fond of the idea of me throwing away tuition/rent money for a new computer that I don't really NEED, but I do believe it is justifiable in a couple years. But, as I wait, I'll just sit by myself - talking to the moon.

Anyways, a few days into February, and I am a bit surprised at a certain situation right now. Normally, I'm not big into the whole birthday thing. Yeah, it's cool that it's the day we celebrate being another year older, but I've never really been fond of celebrating my own. I love celebrating with other people, but when it comes to me, no thanks. So what do I do during my birthday then? Nothing special; I just go about what I normally do (this year will be no different with the paper and midterm that is to follow the next couple days), and at the end of the day I thank God for giving me another year. Seriously, that's about it. This time around though, I think it just hit me that I'm about to flip over the first digit. Heck, I don't even realize that most of my friends are already in their 20s let alone myself being there. In my "younger" days, I always looked up to the people that were close to or in their 20s, because they were so cool. I always wished that I'd one day be like them and can, in turn, do the same to inspire some kids at the age to think the same way I did. Looking at my life now, I think I made it. It's amazing what God has done for me; I know I don't even deserve any of it, but I often have to slap myself a few times to come to the realization that I am who I am.

I kind of look at my life, and people left and right, young and old, a lot of them have respect for who I am and what I do. I know not everyone approves of the way I live with my attitude towards life and how I go about things, but I've always felt that the respect was there. I've probably beaten this to death already, but I always say how people think so highly of me, it seems completely unorthodox because I'm nothing special. At around the age of 20, people start hitting their peaks in terms of the cerebral and fitness. Although I feel disgustingly out of shape (walking up stairs make me tired), I think I do feel like I'm beginning to really gain control of a lot of things that are within my reach. It doesn't take a whole lot for me to understand a concept, it is relatively easy for me to process things in my brain and transfer the proper action to my arms and legs. It's pretty cool.

Okay, you know what? I don't even know what I'm talking about right now. Currently I have loud music on, kids are noisy outside, I'm thinking about my potential Macbook, there's something in my eye, and I just cannot focus on this blog entry. In fact, I think I may have just written something about my body. LOL. T_T

I have a few days of being a teen left, gotta make it worthwhile and do things that only teens do!