Have you ever come across something that just made you smile and go "awwwww"? I'm sure you have. Welp, I've been experiencing this feeling of awestruck for a little over a week. Now, I am almost desperate for something to fill me up.
I've become such a soft person...
Friday, November 21, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Conscious
In psych, we're learning about consciousness right now, and I have to admit that although I am in a subconscious state 90% of the time in that class, I absorb quite a bit of things that my prof lectures about.
If you are weird enough to think about it like I am, how awkward is it to come to the realization that you're alive and living the life you are living? I think I may have come to this result a few times over the last year or so. There were a couple times that I wondered, "wow, how in the world did I end up living this life? Am I really apart of reality, or is this life all just a figment of imagination and we're somehow caught in some illusion or some other weird dimension kind of thing?" To me, living the seventeen years that I have so far, among the most fascinating things I've ever come to finding was that this is me! Get where I'm going? Everything I'm typing right now, is from me. I somehow was put into this life; I'm living it; seventeen years have gone by, and everything around me is so real, or atleast they seem to be. Life itself is such a mystery because you only get to live as one person. Our world is not supernatural enough to call the supernatural, natural. Because of this, we only live one life and experience all there is to experience that is within your control. Then pops the question into your mind: How do I know that I am not the only person that actually exists and everything else around me is just one big image created by my brain? In psych you learn that your eye sees things but your brain is what translate what your eye sees so your consciousness can understand it. When your eye is tricked, your brain can't seem to process everything that is in front of your eyes which causes you to be confused. We also have a blind spot in our eyes and when something crosses our blind spot, we actually don't see anything there but our brain assumes what is there based on what is around it. So considering all of this, how do we know that everything around us is actually there existing and not just imagination played out by our brain. Well the obvious answer for anyone reading this would be, "duh, I'm reading this right now, and you wrote it, so that means it has to be existing." I normally don't like to challenge people, but how can you be certain of it?
I guess this is just one of the amazing mysteries of life and something we as a single human cannot come to fully understanding. It's quite possible that I am just overthinking everything and the answer is very obvious and I'm just missing it. I also think alot of my thoughts were lost in translation from my brain to the keyboard, haha. Life is a test from God right? If we past the test, we get to go to heaven. So what if each person has their own life in front of them. They live their life, and everything else is generated and designed to be able to throw these challenges at a person. Therefore, each person lives a seperate life and experiences different things. Then when it is all over, we all meet happily in heaven for those that have passed.
Yeah, I know I'm weird. But the only way anyone could become smarter and more experienced is by thinking and pursuing. So here I am, just another inexperienced and young person thinking about why things are they way they are; don't mind me.
If you are weird enough to think about it like I am, how awkward is it to come to the realization that you're alive and living the life you are living? I think I may have come to this result a few times over the last year or so. There were a couple times that I wondered, "wow, how in the world did I end up living this life? Am I really apart of reality, or is this life all just a figment of imagination and we're somehow caught in some illusion or some other weird dimension kind of thing?" To me, living the seventeen years that I have so far, among the most fascinating things I've ever come to finding was that this is me! Get where I'm going? Everything I'm typing right now, is from me. I somehow was put into this life; I'm living it; seventeen years have gone by, and everything around me is so real, or atleast they seem to be. Life itself is such a mystery because you only get to live as one person. Our world is not supernatural enough to call the supernatural, natural. Because of this, we only live one life and experience all there is to experience that is within your control. Then pops the question into your mind: How do I know that I am not the only person that actually exists and everything else around me is just one big image created by my brain? In psych you learn that your eye sees things but your brain is what translate what your eye sees so your consciousness can understand it. When your eye is tricked, your brain can't seem to process everything that is in front of your eyes which causes you to be confused. We also have a blind spot in our eyes and when something crosses our blind spot, we actually don't see anything there but our brain assumes what is there based on what is around it. So considering all of this, how do we know that everything around us is actually there existing and not just imagination played out by our brain. Well the obvious answer for anyone reading this would be, "duh, I'm reading this right now, and you wrote it, so that means it has to be existing." I normally don't like to challenge people, but how can you be certain of it?
I guess this is just one of the amazing mysteries of life and something we as a single human cannot come to fully understanding. It's quite possible that I am just overthinking everything and the answer is very obvious and I'm just missing it. I also think alot of my thoughts were lost in translation from my brain to the keyboard, haha. Life is a test from God right? If we past the test, we get to go to heaven. So what if each person has their own life in front of them. They live their life, and everything else is generated and designed to be able to throw these challenges at a person. Therefore, each person lives a seperate life and experiences different things. Then when it is all over, we all meet happily in heaven for those that have passed.
Yeah, I know I'm weird. But the only way anyone could become smarter and more experienced is by thinking and pursuing. So here I am, just another inexperienced and young person thinking about why things are they way they are; don't mind me.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Every Little Thing
Courage, the magic that turns dreams into reality.
This past week was slightly different. It was a three day week, which killed me; I bought the game that I have been waiting for since forever, etc. I think my work ethic and motivation for school has been completely shot. After my three midterm day, I have not found any desire or motivation to do any school work; buying Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World brought down my desire to do anything school related even more. I will openly admit and be ashamed of being the epitome of a slack-off for the past two weeks. However, I don't want to be spending an entire post being emo and ranting about how horrible I am of a person.
So, now to my geeky side =D First impressions of Tales of Symphonia 2 have been pretty decent. I have to admit that this game is rather linear compared to the first one. I like things to be very open ended but I guess I cannot complain because the producers ran out of time. Aside from that, and other minor mediocrisies of this game, I have been fairly impressed with this game's story. I love it when people are continually left guessing and makes you think. For those people who are not so bright on the common sense side, play more RPG games because they make you think. The cheesy love story between Emil and Marta is also laughable. Whether that is good or bad depends on the state you are at. For me, it's a little mixed. Let's see how many classes I skip this week to play this game, lol <_<
*REMINDER TO DO MY STUPID ENGLISH ESSAY*
Now more to my spiritual side of things. I wish that the thoughts and feelings that come to me during the week relating to God and how amazing He is and the situation of living life could be put into words either in text or vocally. We are told to go and spread the good news about the gospel and about God's love, to let God's inspiration in you be inspiration to others. But I am finding it hard to be able to translate this inspiration into a useful method that I can maybe use to draw other people to experiencing some amazing things that I've had. There is actually alot that is going through my mind right now and all I can say to anyone who wants to know is to chase after God. Have a burning desire in you that makes you want to feel for what God can do. I've come to the conclusion that the only thing I can do as of my experience level is to inspire people or encourage to pursue God to see what He can offer to you. If anyone likes me enough to care about this(lol), and get to experience something along the lines of what I'm talking about, I will be happy beyond my sanity level holds. Today we had a guest speaker with Ps. Jon Kramer and I could not put it in better words than he did: living life following Jesus is not easy, but it is worth it. The part that really hit me was that all we're doing is 100% worth it; when you finally feel that sense of fulfillment or accomplishment, the satisfaction you have with yourself and all that is around you is beyond belief. Give it a try, it's worth it.
Be the change you want to see in this world, and every little thing is gonna be alright.
This past week was slightly different. It was a three day week, which killed me; I bought the game that I have been waiting for since forever, etc. I think my work ethic and motivation for school has been completely shot. After my three midterm day, I have not found any desire or motivation to do any school work; buying Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World brought down my desire to do anything school related even more. I will openly admit and be ashamed of being the epitome of a slack-off for the past two weeks. However, I don't want to be spending an entire post being emo and ranting about how horrible I am of a person.
So, now to my geeky side =D First impressions of Tales of Symphonia 2 have been pretty decent. I have to admit that this game is rather linear compared to the first one. I like things to be very open ended but I guess I cannot complain because the producers ran out of time. Aside from that, and other minor mediocrisies of this game, I have been fairly impressed with this game's story. I love it when people are continually left guessing and makes you think. For those people who are not so bright on the common sense side, play more RPG games because they make you think. The cheesy love story between Emil and Marta is also laughable. Whether that is good or bad depends on the state you are at. For me, it's a little mixed. Let's see how many classes I skip this week to play this game, lol <_<
*REMINDER TO DO MY STUPID ENGLISH ESSAY*
Now more to my spiritual side of things. I wish that the thoughts and feelings that come to me during the week relating to God and how amazing He is and the situation of living life could be put into words either in text or vocally. We are told to go and spread the good news about the gospel and about God's love, to let God's inspiration in you be inspiration to others. But I am finding it hard to be able to translate this inspiration into a useful method that I can maybe use to draw other people to experiencing some amazing things that I've had. There is actually alot that is going through my mind right now and all I can say to anyone who wants to know is to chase after God. Have a burning desire in you that makes you want to feel for what God can do. I've come to the conclusion that the only thing I can do as of my experience level is to inspire people or encourage to pursue God to see what He can offer to you. If anyone likes me enough to care about this(lol), and get to experience something along the lines of what I'm talking about, I will be happy beyond my sanity level holds. Today we had a guest speaker with Ps. Jon Kramer and I could not put it in better words than he did: living life following Jesus is not easy, but it is worth it. The part that really hit me was that all we're doing is 100% worth it; when you finally feel that sense of fulfillment or accomplishment, the satisfaction you have with yourself and all that is around you is beyond belief. Give it a try, it's worth it.
Be the change you want to see in this world, and every little thing is gonna be alright.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
Relaxing Bummer
Tales of Symphonia: Dawn of the New World.
I have been waiting for this RPG for a LONG time, and it got released today. However, since today is Rememberance Day, shipping gets delayed and no store knows when the game will arrive.. bummer. A couple factors play into this:
1) I am a rabid RPG fan. Since Tales of Symphonia got released for the gamecube, it had become my second all time favorite game adding up to 8 completions of the game for me (= This game was so good, it was only reasonable for the hype for the sequel to this game.
2) Since Baten Kaitos: Origins, I have not played any RPG game, and it has been well over a couple years and I am definitely RPG starved now.
3) On top of being RPG starved, I really have not been playing games at all the last year or so. So there is a craving inside of me that wants to play games again.. Every guy should have their fair share of games right? I am not much of a gamer anyways.. I just like my RPGs.
I will be checking stores constantly looking for this game <_< I don't care what reviews or people say about it, this game has top notch story lines and that's usually what I play for anyway.
On the other hand, so much for "fall break". I would've thought this four day weekend called "fall break" would be a week or so. But I have to be thankful because I have been able to relax and do absolutely nothing (basically what I do everyday). So what have I done this long weekend? Absolutely nothing. I just remember literally like a few seconds ago that I was gonna change my guitar strings, but I haven't, oops. Definitely feels good to do nothing again though.. But now it's all over and I've got to start working on stuff again because there's only a little over three weeks of school left.. Why does university suck so much?
It's been a good break, now it's time to go and git'r done.
Woohoo! Go Oilers!
I have been waiting for this RPG for a LONG time, and it got released today. However, since today is Rememberance Day, shipping gets delayed and no store knows when the game will arrive.. bummer. A couple factors play into this:
1) I am a rabid RPG fan. Since Tales of Symphonia got released for the gamecube, it had become my second all time favorite game adding up to 8 completions of the game for me (= This game was so good, it was only reasonable for the hype for the sequel to this game.
2) Since Baten Kaitos: Origins, I have not played any RPG game, and it has been well over a couple years and I am definitely RPG starved now.
3) On top of being RPG starved, I really have not been playing games at all the last year or so. So there is a craving inside of me that wants to play games again.. Every guy should have their fair share of games right? I am not much of a gamer anyways.. I just like my RPGs.
I will be checking stores constantly looking for this game <_< I don't care what reviews or people say about it, this game has top notch story lines and that's usually what I play for anyway.
On the other hand, so much for "fall break". I would've thought this four day weekend called "fall break" would be a week or so. But I have to be thankful because I have been able to relax and do absolutely nothing (basically what I do everyday). So what have I done this long weekend? Absolutely nothing. I just remember literally like a few seconds ago that I was gonna change my guitar strings, but I haven't, oops. Definitely feels good to do nothing again though.. But now it's all over and I've got to start working on stuff again because there's only a little over three weeks of school left.. Why does university suck so much?
It's been a good break, now it's time to go and git'r done.
Woohoo! Go Oilers!
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