Conscious

In psych, we're learning about consciousness right now, and I have to admit that although I am in a subconscious state 90% of the time in that class, I absorb quite a bit of things that my prof lectures about.

If you are weird enough to think about it like I am, how awkward is it to come to the realization that you're alive and living the life you are living? I think I may have come to this result a few times over the last year or so. There were a couple times that I wondered, "wow, how in the world did I end up living this life? Am I really apart of reality, or is this life all just a figment of imagination and we're somehow caught in some illusion or some other weird dimension kind of thing?" To me, living the seventeen years that I have so far, among the most fascinating things I've ever come to finding was that this is me! Get where I'm going? Everything I'm typing right now, is from me. I somehow was put into this life; I'm living it; seventeen years have gone by, and everything around me is so real, or atleast they seem to be. Life itself is such a mystery because you only get to live as one person. Our world is not supernatural enough to call the supernatural, natural. Because of this, we only live one life and experience all there is to experience that is within your control. Then pops the question into your mind: How do I know that I am not the only person that actually exists and everything else around me is just one big image created by my brain? In psych you learn that your eye sees things but your brain is what translate what your eye sees so your consciousness can understand it. When your eye is tricked, your brain can't seem to process everything that is in front of your eyes which causes you to be confused. We also have a blind spot in our eyes and when something crosses our blind spot, we actually don't see anything there but our brain assumes what is there based on what is around it. So considering all of this, how do we know that everything around us is actually there existing and not just imagination played out by our brain. Well the obvious answer for anyone reading this would be, "duh, I'm reading this right now, and you wrote it, so that means it has to be existing." I normally don't like to challenge people, but how can you be certain of it?

I guess this is just one of the amazing mysteries of life and something we as a single human cannot come to fully understanding. It's quite possible that I am just overthinking everything and the answer is very obvious and I'm just missing it. I also think alot of my thoughts were lost in translation from my brain to the keyboard, haha. Life is a test from God right? If we past the test, we get to go to heaven. So what if each person has their own life in front of them. They live their life, and everything else is generated and designed to be able to throw these challenges at a person. Therefore, each person lives a seperate life and experiences different things. Then when it is all over, we all meet happily in heaven for those that have passed.

Yeah, I know I'm weird. But the only way anyone could become smarter and more experienced is by thinking and pursuing. So here I am, just another inexperienced and young person thinking about why things are they way they are; don't mind me.