Food

So, there are always those things that people seem to tell you, and at the time you hear it you don't think too much about it, but some time later it totally comes true and you get one of those "I told you so" type of moments.

Last year, and I didn't think it was possible, but I lost over 10 pounds over the course of the school year. It was quite visible too, according to some people, about how I had gotten skinnier. Funny, because I didn't think I could; but apparently, I can. So over the four months that I was home, I tried to gain it back - it kind of worked.

I swore to myself that I was not going to let this occur again this year. A month and a half of school later, I think it might happen. I cannot stand eating cafeteria food everyday. It tastes awful, and is hardly ever filling to the point that it can put me through to the next meal. The worst thing about it is that it is so bloody expensive. If it didn't cost an arm or a leg every time I wanted to get something to eat, maybe I wouldn't be as reluctant to go get something. I remember, and had a good guess that it'd be true, years ago when some people told me that cafeteria food is awful to be living on. I didn't think that it'd actually come to a point where I'd be living off of cafe food.

I haven't intentionally done it, but I've caught myself trying to get around it a few times: I've skipped some meals. The best example will be that over the last two days, I didn't eat lunch. Sure, I've been tight on time for doing my paper, but I still think that it is inexcusable that I'm not eating enough. And because I'm not eating enough, I am reminded of what it feels like to have next to no energy or ability to function because of the lack of food in my stomach. It kind of sucks.

So my eating habits are pretty bad already, and I sure as heck hope that it doesn't come down to me losing weight again because I'm already skinny enough.

The challenge now is that I find a way to stay full! If you ask me, I'd probably choose to be getting fat rather than getting skinny now in the state that I'm in. Don't get me wrong though! I still prefer to be skinny over being fat; but my point is that if I had to choose between getting fat off cafeteria food over getting skinny, I'd pick fat. Because I don't like being hungry!

Oh well, I'll learn to deal (=