Turning Tables

Well, this week was definitely a week worth remembering for multiple reasons. School has been decent. I'm still having a bit of trouble really getting down to work, but it's getting there!

The first half of the week was so full of bliss. I had so much joy in me for the first few days for many reasons. I was pleasantly surprised with visitors on Monday and Tuesday, and it was really cool to see people that I don't get to see often. I also had a lot of "fun" with Greek this week. All those translations and all the rules of this and that probably aged my brain a few years, but it was fun to experience. In my other religion classes, I really like the professor so paying attention has been easy and engaging with the topic as well. As for my practicum, it finally looks like there's a more definitive role for me that's starting to be laid out. So no more of that awkward sitting in on junior high and high school groups looking like another one of them. Haha.

Also with this week, I experienced how one person can make me feel like I'm on top of the world and then the most useless piece of garbage over the span of a couple of moments. I didn't know it was possible, but I guess it is. Aside from all the overreacting on my part and whatever else kind of factors that contributed to such a harsh and sudden turning of tables, I feel like there's something really valuable for me to learn, even if I haven't quite found out what it is exactly yet.

I've realized that in a relationship between two people, whether it is a friend, significant other, parent, sibling, etc., there are going to be times where there are rough patches that might cause a bit of tension and make things uncomfortable or sour. It's usually in these times where someone's true colors start to show, everything from how they handle the situation to where the relationship goes after that point of conflict.

When I think about it, I haven't had any of these situations happen to me in a very long time. From what it seemed to me anyway, most people were pretty cool with me and I never got into any fights or arguments that would cause bitterness or whatever. So having it happen this week, it caught me a little by surprise and I might not have done the best that I could have to handle it initially. And now that I've recovered from the initial shock a little bit, I hope that the amends I've tried to make will fix things a little bit. I'm honestly not entirely sure if my relationship with this person will ever be back to the way it was, literally, a few minutes before the tables turned. If you ask me, it was probably my fault that it even happened in the first place; but just the way that it played out, it was like how Tiger Woods was arguably the most respected athlete in the world, and the second his affairs were discovered, he lost almost all of it immediately. That's pretty much the extent to what I felt like happened, which is why I said earlier that it was amazing how one person could make me feel so amazing; and then all of a sudden, like I'm the worst person in the world.

So with that being said, here's hoping that my relationship with this person can heal without too much scarring.

Happy Friday, everyone! (=