Today, I figured out why I've been a bit "angsty" lately. It's because I haven't had a good worship in a while. I normally take time out once every week or two to play guitar and sing a bunch of songs to clear my mind and just praise God. But I haven't done that more than once or twice since moving here. Why? I think I just haven't been able to do it without much distraction.
I think whoever came up with this "Spiritual Emphasis Day" at AUC was the smartest person to ever attend the school. Take two days off to put emphasis on your spirituality? I think so. What it really is, is just a tiny two day conference. One of the breakout sessions I went to today was a worship one. Even though there were only a handful people that showed up for the one I went to, it was really nice for me to forget about everything and sing some songs. There's a lot of times where I want to go to church and just worship. But I haven't been able to do that because I have to teach Sunday School every week. And once a month I do worship. As fun as leading worship is, I sometimes just want to be one of the members in the congregation and soak everything in. I had two communions this month. I don't know why I just said that, but I did. Anyhow, I have two midterms and a paper due next Tuesday and Wednesday. Finding that out yesterday made me a little uptight.
After coming out of that worship session thing, it felt so good. It felt good right up until I walked out the door of the gym and remembered that I have stuff to do. But that hour of where I just stood there and sang was really refreshing. Uptight people should be introduced to it. It makes you feel good. And when you feel good, you sing, because of the joy it brings. I didn't know a lot of the songs they sang, but just the fact that I got a chance to push everything aside was pretty sweet.
I had wondered why I felt like I had so much tension in me lately, but it's only because I haven't had a chance to worship. So it's all good now. I even feel a bit better about having to study for two midterms and writing a book analysis paper on a book that I haven't even finished half of. I am eating candy at 9:47pm, which probably isn't a very good idea, but I'm doing it anyway.
Uhh, anyway, I think that's about all I can say. What can you get out of this? I don't know, it's your call. Maybe, for the times when you feel like a dink, just take a chance to worship - it does wonders. Worship, and really mean it.
That is all.
1 comment:
get a massage too! takes the tension in your shoulders and back!
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