New

About this time every year, people are scrambling around and being skeptic about a new school year. In Edmonton, there is one day of summer holidays left and then it begins a new year for the edumacation.

It's completely different for me this time around, because I'm not going back to school. To add on top of that, I haven't found a job yet. So while everyone is trying to get things together, organizing supplies and such, I'm sitting here at home with next to no life. This time around, I have the leisure to be able to not be caught up with being nervous about school, but rather be calm and relaxed at home. It is a bit tough to accept that I won't get to see some friends as often anymore. I know what it's like to be disconnected for a period of time, and it's not a pretty sight to see.

In reality, though, it sucks. Not being able to find a job has been one of the hardest things for me to deal with in the last few months. It is a feeling that I can't really describe. I know I need a job, and some of the motivation and effort to find one is there, but the fact that it's so hard to find jobs now and my lack of qualifications just makes it that much harder. I try not to let it get in my way of affecting the way I behave, but to tell you the truth, it's starting to eat me alive. Okay, I'm exaggerating a bit, but it's the fear of not having a job and being a bum at home all day that keeps me up. I've had plenty of time to waste, but I can't seem to get myself to finding employment. I will give myself another week or so, to see if anyone calls from the places I applied last week, then I will probably revert to working at places I don't really want to work.

So this is what's new for me. Not going to school for the first time in my life. I can tell people that I've dropped out of school, haha. Pretty much everyday, now, is a new learning experience for me.

Anyways, I wish everyone a great start to their school year. A lot of people deserve great things, so hopefully this next year will bring nothing but greatness.

Don't lose hold of who you are.