Alright! I'm feeling pretty good after coming home from our brief five day trip to Radium, BC. The last time I went out of town with my family was two years ago when my mom turned 50. From what I can remember, we spent two weeks in Vancouver, did a bunch of things, and came back for school. I am so blessed to be able to have the family and extended family that I have. We, as a whole, have been blessed so much by God and just to be so gifted in more or less everything we do is a great honour and privilege.
This time around, we decided to do a trip in early June because it's the first time the three of us are done school at the end of April. I definitely understand the difficulties in planning family vacations now. Add another fact that each of us are have varying differences in the things we want to do. In the past, it used to be my parents planned the trip, and we did whatever they planned. Now that we're older and more independent, my parents give us more freedom to recommend things. But because we all like different things, trying to arrive at a conclusion is hard because we want to be accommodating, but at the same time push for the things we want. LOL.
Either way, this brief trip was so needed for me. On the Thursday, randomly, my parents thought maybe going to Vancouver would be a better idea. I love Vancouver, but I cannot spend only five days there, especially given that our cousins still have work and school to do. So we ended up doing the Radium trip.
When we departed on Sunday morning, my family wanted to go to a mega church and an Alliance church. So I only had one suggestion, First Alliance in Calgary. I hadn't gone to that church in over a year, so it was a nice time being able to attend their service again.
Later the day, we arrived in Radium, and I'm pretty sure we brought the average age of the town down by about ten years. Since it was Sunday night, anyone that would've been in Radium would be going home, leaving only the old folks and family/business owners there. The town was ghost-ish, so I didn't really feel that great about the trip.
On Monday, we drove down to the Invermere area to explore. Then, after some hard work of persuasion, we went up to a par 3 nine hole golf course. I was so stoked to be able to actually play a full 9. Having worked at a golf course over a summer, I never had the opportunity to play a full course before; the only time I got to hit the ball was on some quiet or rainy days when the course was empty. Since golf isn't really a sport you can just pick up, my family had some hesitations about going because we knew we'd look pathetic. And we did; after spending 45 minutes on the first hole, and me trying to teach my family how to hold the club and how to hit the ball, we had all successfully sunk our first hole! Halfway through that hole, I knew my family felt defeated and ready to pack it in, so I did my best just to encourage them to have fun and forget about technique and all that stuff. I'm glad I did, because I think we actually ended up having a great time! We spent a total of three hours on the golf course, and I hit a +17.
After the golf, you guessed it, we went back to our motel to watch hockey.
On Tuesday morning, we drove an hour up to Golden, BC, to go white water rafting. I think we felt hesitant for this one too because we're not the greatest swimmers, and quite frankly, being swept away by water is scary for anyone. When we were down at the dock to load onto our rafts, I think I could hear my mom shivering in her gear behind me. I, myself, was slightly shaky for the first bit because I hadn't done any rafting in a few years either, so I had to get over the initial jitters. Then, about half an hour later, and somewhere down the river, I was just exhausted from sitting in the front getting splashed on and having to paddle the damn raft when everything was hurting! All in all, I'm so glad my mom ended up braving up and going down the river with us; it would not have been the same without her.
To finish off the day, we went back to Radium and just soaked in the hot springs for an hour or so, then got some ice cream. What an awesome way to end the day!
Finally, to finish off the trip on Wednesday, we drove out to Banff just to take an easier day in walking around the town and watching hockey. On Thursday morning, we drove out back to Calgary and spent a few hours at Cross Iron Mills, where I bought two pairs of shorts, before coming back to Edmonton.
Now that I'm back home, I realize that I'm closing in on two months since finishing my degree. I'm just beginning to discover that the "summer off" that I wanted really isn't going to be a summer off. I'm facing the constant pressure and stress of having to find a church to work at, having people ask me to do this and do that. While I love being with and helping people, I didn't expect much of it. I thought it'd be a low key summer for me, but I guess I should've known better. It's all good, in the end.
I'm really excited, looking ahead to September for a first that will happen for me. I won't disclose what it is yet because it's not confirmed/finalized, but assuming that everything works out, I'm going to be taking part of my first real task that comes with the territory of being a pastor; and I cannot WAIT!
How about that Spain-Netherlands game, though.
Saturday, June 14, 2014
Thursday, June 5, 2014
Biding Time
Hi! Hey! Hello!
Nice to meet you. I am terrible, I haven't blogged in almost a month, but you can call me Nathan! Unfortunately, not blogging is largely because I don't have much to blog about, meaning I haven't done, or even attempted to do, much. To be honest, I don't have much to say now either, so maybe I'll just tell you what you probably know.
First things first, I've watched a few more movies since the last blog. I think I watched more movies in the month of May than I have in all of 2012 and 2013 combined. One thing I love, though, is that I can always learn something from movies that directors attempt to relay to viewers. I appreciate that even some of the most pointless movies can have something decent - there are exceptions, of course.
Well, I can also say that I've officially preached my first sermon at my home church. Almost two weeks later, I still don't know how I feel about it. I'm afraid to confess that the entire time, it seemed like I couldn't really connect with the congregation; it felt like I was preaching inside of a box or a vacuum. People told me that they thought I did well, so I guess that they're just either being nice or that some part of my message did get through. It was an altogether strange experience for me. I normally feel pretty down after preaching, but this time wasn't all that bad. I just hope that what my impression of the sermon is a one-off. Overall, I'd put the sermon somewhere in the middle of all the times I've preached, in terms of how well it went. I always pray that if the message can touch at least one person, then the job is done, so hopefully that's what occurred.
Next, my family will embark on a five day trip to Radium in BC! We leave Sunday and come back Thursday, I think. I'm really stoked to get away for a while because coming home has grown a bit numb for me.
Speaking of coming home, I really feel my time of being at home for extended time is done. It's become so evident that when I'm home, I fall back into old habits and the old persona of who I am or was before I left. So I find myself not really being the person that I'd become during my time away. It sucks because this makes me somewhat of a two-face, but I guess if I'm just like this all the time, then it isn't really being two-faced, it's just me not being me. LOL. I really do think I've matured a whole lot as a person, but being where I am now just kind of brings back that side of me and I'm not really the person I've grown to be. So when I do or say something that is immature or inappropriate, I catch myself and get upset because I know that I've put these things behind so they shouldn't be resurfacing.
Anyhow! If you're wondering about my job search, I'm still stuck in a bit of a rut because I don't really know exactly what it is I'm looking for in a church. In the past, I've sort of listed out the preferences, described the scenarios I want, etc., but we all know that if God says differently, none of it matters. So I'm, in a sense, scared to say that "this" is what I want or that there is a certain role I want to get into. However, I also know that if I don't actively look for churches, I won't know when I come across the "right" one. So it works both ways, it's all up to me.
In the end, I don't think I really said anything. I'm just simply biding time until things happen. I'm still stuck, and beginning to feel numb. So this means I should probably do something with myself. Although, I am really looking forward to summer camp! World cup also starts next week, so I'll have things to occupy my time with again!
Nice to meet you. I am terrible, I haven't blogged in almost a month, but you can call me Nathan! Unfortunately, not blogging is largely because I don't have much to blog about, meaning I haven't done, or even attempted to do, much. To be honest, I don't have much to say now either, so maybe I'll just tell you what you probably know.
First things first, I've watched a few more movies since the last blog. I think I watched more movies in the month of May than I have in all of 2012 and 2013 combined. One thing I love, though, is that I can always learn something from movies that directors attempt to relay to viewers. I appreciate that even some of the most pointless movies can have something decent - there are exceptions, of course.
Well, I can also say that I've officially preached my first sermon at my home church. Almost two weeks later, I still don't know how I feel about it. I'm afraid to confess that the entire time, it seemed like I couldn't really connect with the congregation; it felt like I was preaching inside of a box or a vacuum. People told me that they thought I did well, so I guess that they're just either being nice or that some part of my message did get through. It was an altogether strange experience for me. I normally feel pretty down after preaching, but this time wasn't all that bad. I just hope that what my impression of the sermon is a one-off. Overall, I'd put the sermon somewhere in the middle of all the times I've preached, in terms of how well it went. I always pray that if the message can touch at least one person, then the job is done, so hopefully that's what occurred.
Next, my family will embark on a five day trip to Radium in BC! We leave Sunday and come back Thursday, I think. I'm really stoked to get away for a while because coming home has grown a bit numb for me.
Speaking of coming home, I really feel my time of being at home for extended time is done. It's become so evident that when I'm home, I fall back into old habits and the old persona of who I am or was before I left. So I find myself not really being the person that I'd become during my time away. It sucks because this makes me somewhat of a two-face, but I guess if I'm just like this all the time, then it isn't really being two-faced, it's just me not being me. LOL. I really do think I've matured a whole lot as a person, but being where I am now just kind of brings back that side of me and I'm not really the person I've grown to be. So when I do or say something that is immature or inappropriate, I catch myself and get upset because I know that I've put these things behind so they shouldn't be resurfacing.
Anyhow! If you're wondering about my job search, I'm still stuck in a bit of a rut because I don't really know exactly what it is I'm looking for in a church. In the past, I've sort of listed out the preferences, described the scenarios I want, etc., but we all know that if God says differently, none of it matters. So I'm, in a sense, scared to say that "this" is what I want or that there is a certain role I want to get into. However, I also know that if I don't actively look for churches, I won't know when I come across the "right" one. So it works both ways, it's all up to me.
In the end, I don't think I really said anything. I'm just simply biding time until things happen. I'm still stuck, and beginning to feel numb. So this means I should probably do something with myself. Although, I am really looking forward to summer camp! World cup also starts next week, so I'll have things to occupy my time with again!
Wednesday, May 14, 2014
Awaiting the Day
Hello! I'm still alive, just differently. I've just emerged from my two weeks of doing absolutely nothing, and life is good.
What did I do throughout my two weeks? Well, not much, to be honest. I probably spoiled myself by not waking up until noon pretty much everyday. I wish I was able to say that I did something exciting, but I basically woke up each day, sat around doing a bunch of random things until it was time to watch hockey or play some games. Completely avoiding the job searching was difficult though, because pretty much everyone I reconnect with has asked me about "what next?" Many of the folks here asked me to come back to pastor at NEAC, and I am thankful that they respect my desire to go elsewhere for my first job, having open arms for me if I ever wanted to come back.
Where will that elsewhere be, you ask? That's a great question! I know where I want to go, as I've mentioned multiple times, but I'll have to see what situations arise. I've been contacted by a bigger church in Saskatoon about a worship pastor position, so I'm currently in conversation with their lead pastor. From what I'm able to grasp right now, I think I will probably have to choose between doing worship or youth, at least to start. If it were up to me, I feel strangely that I somewhat lean more towards youth. It may be because I don't really feel qualified to be a worship pastor. I've been starting to move away from worship pastor because, at this point in time, my style of leadership wouldn't suit an environment that doesn't prefer a more relaxed, laid back, and open ended worship. Music is so strange that there are so many demands of rules and structure, and yet at the same time, some of the greatest musicians break a lot of these rules. I'm more of the person that breaks the rules, which would drive some others crazy. And because I so heavily emphasize discipleship, I want to be able to look at the broader context rather and a specific ministry. I love to lead worship for fun, but in the days where I see it merely as a job will scare me.
So there's that...
I watched The Amazing Spiderman 2 and Captain America 2 in the theatres over the last week, and I must say that they were both good. Some people ripped Spiderman to pieces, but I didn't mind it at all. Those people that harp so much on the movie are just anal - we'll leave it at that. So many people see themselves as such "experts" that they can't even go enjoy a movie in the theatres with friends/family: the very reason why a lot of us go watch movies to begin with.
I'm also leading worship for a revival meeting this upcoming Saturday at church. I haven't lead worship with a full band in almost two years, so practice tonight felt new to me; thanks to the incredible competence of my friends' musical abilities, I didn't have much trouble picking up my worship leading.
Finally, I am infinitely glad that Spring has arrived for good! Going outside with the sun and warm weather just makes my heart so happy. Haha.
What did I do throughout my two weeks? Well, not much, to be honest. I probably spoiled myself by not waking up until noon pretty much everyday. I wish I was able to say that I did something exciting, but I basically woke up each day, sat around doing a bunch of random things until it was time to watch hockey or play some games. Completely avoiding the job searching was difficult though, because pretty much everyone I reconnect with has asked me about "what next?" Many of the folks here asked me to come back to pastor at NEAC, and I am thankful that they respect my desire to go elsewhere for my first job, having open arms for me if I ever wanted to come back.
Where will that elsewhere be, you ask? That's a great question! I know where I want to go, as I've mentioned multiple times, but I'll have to see what situations arise. I've been contacted by a bigger church in Saskatoon about a worship pastor position, so I'm currently in conversation with their lead pastor. From what I'm able to grasp right now, I think I will probably have to choose between doing worship or youth, at least to start. If it were up to me, I feel strangely that I somewhat lean more towards youth. It may be because I don't really feel qualified to be a worship pastor. I've been starting to move away from worship pastor because, at this point in time, my style of leadership wouldn't suit an environment that doesn't prefer a more relaxed, laid back, and open ended worship. Music is so strange that there are so many demands of rules and structure, and yet at the same time, some of the greatest musicians break a lot of these rules. I'm more of the person that breaks the rules, which would drive some others crazy. And because I so heavily emphasize discipleship, I want to be able to look at the broader context rather and a specific ministry. I love to lead worship for fun, but in the days where I see it merely as a job will scare me.
So there's that...
I watched The Amazing Spiderman 2 and Captain America 2 in the theatres over the last week, and I must say that they were both good. Some people ripped Spiderman to pieces, but I didn't mind it at all. Those people that harp so much on the movie are just anal - we'll leave it at that. So many people see themselves as such "experts" that they can't even go enjoy a movie in the theatres with friends/family: the very reason why a lot of us go watch movies to begin with.
I'm also leading worship for a revival meeting this upcoming Saturday at church. I haven't lead worship with a full band in almost two years, so practice tonight felt new to me; thanks to the incredible competence of my friends' musical abilities, I didn't have much trouble picking up my worship leading.
Finally, I am infinitely glad that Spring has arrived for good! Going outside with the sun and warm weather just makes my heart so happy. Haha.
Wednesday, April 30, 2014
A New Day
I think I'm still in a state of disbelief that my schooling is done. I don't feel like I'm done, which is probably a good thing because it means I'm still willing to learn, but I believe the whole thing about "sinking in" won't happen until I actually start working. So then that means I'm left in this stage of limbo of my mind saying to me "I think I'm done." I've never been done school before, so this is totally new. Because I've never encountered this before, my brain and body keeps telling me that this break is all temporary and I need to find a summer job until school starts again in September. However, I know that this is not the case anymore. I actually wondered if I still needed to find a summer job. In all honesty, I probably could find a part time job to tie me over until I find a church, but I don't know if that's even necessary or if employers would hire me if I tell them that I'm working until I find an actual job.
You can probably tell what's sort of going through my head in that it's been almost a week of coming home and I haven't reflected and evaluated the end of my education, let alone blog about it. With the week that's gone by, I've basically done two things that (at least I, myself) find interesting. I bought a game for 60 bucks, played a couple hours of it, and don't really like it (don't worry, I'll still finish it). The second one is that I watched a music video of a song I've been listening to a lot recently, and realizing just how dark the song actually is now that I've watched the video. I thought it was just a song about putting the past behind you and moving on - boy, was I wrong.
Yeah, that's about it; pretty lame, I know. I'm also in a bit of conflict about unpacking all my things. I normally don't really unpack when I come home for summers because I know I'll just need to throw everything in boxes/bags again. Going down to Calgary was a big move, but my next one will be even bigger: I'll basically be vacating my spot in the house for good. As you can see, I'm stuck and not sure what to do with myself.
Furthermore, I keep getting asked, as expected, about potential churches - and even a wife, believe it or not - but I have to do my best to keep to what I said I'd do. I've been home for less than a week and I'm already feeling the pressure to go find a job, even after I said that I'm going to take two weeks completely off and that my goal is to be in a church by the Fall. It's difficult to try to go at my own pace when my pace gets swallowed up by the rest of the world's pace. Knowing me, though, it's not too difficult for me to take some time off. I just usually do it begrudingly, knowing I should probably be doing something productive.
So there you have it, a graduated student who's gone home for about a week, completely clueless as to what he is to do with himself during this time of transition. Nevertheless, tomorrow is a brand new day that I am extremely excited yet nervous about!
Now if only the weather would be warm enough to play soccer...
You can probably tell what's sort of going through my head in that it's been almost a week of coming home and I haven't reflected and evaluated the end of my education, let alone blog about it. With the week that's gone by, I've basically done two things that (at least I, myself) find interesting. I bought a game for 60 bucks, played a couple hours of it, and don't really like it (don't worry, I'll still finish it). The second one is that I watched a music video of a song I've been listening to a lot recently, and realizing just how dark the song actually is now that I've watched the video. I thought it was just a song about putting the past behind you and moving on - boy, was I wrong.
Yeah, that's about it; pretty lame, I know. I'm also in a bit of conflict about unpacking all my things. I normally don't really unpack when I come home for summers because I know I'll just need to throw everything in boxes/bags again. Going down to Calgary was a big move, but my next one will be even bigger: I'll basically be vacating my spot in the house for good. As you can see, I'm stuck and not sure what to do with myself.
Furthermore, I keep getting asked, as expected, about potential churches - and even a wife, believe it or not - but I have to do my best to keep to what I said I'd do. I've been home for less than a week and I'm already feeling the pressure to go find a job, even after I said that I'm going to take two weeks completely off and that my goal is to be in a church by the Fall. It's difficult to try to go at my own pace when my pace gets swallowed up by the rest of the world's pace. Knowing me, though, it's not too difficult for me to take some time off. I just usually do it begrudingly, knowing I should probably be doing something productive.
So there you have it, a graduated student who's gone home for about a week, completely clueless as to what he is to do with himself during this time of transition. Nevertheless, tomorrow is a brand new day that I am extremely excited yet nervous about!
Now if only the weather would be warm enough to play soccer...
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