So It Goes

I haven't done one of these in a while, so I think that this is a pretty appropriate time to ramble. Most of this post will be about nonsense, so if you care to take the time, you can join me in my adventure of being A.D.D.

Over Reading Week, most people went somewhere, be it home or whatever, to take a break. I, however, had a class to take! If I remember right, I think the reason Reading Week was implemented was because this week was one where suicide rates amongst university students were one of the highest. When you think about it then, it's strange that schools still offer mod courses during this time. Haha. Regardless, I enjoyed the class a lot. I don't like that there's a full course's work load introduced randomly in February, but I have to suck it up and do the work over the next month. Having Bill as a prof is always refreshing for me, I really enjoy what he brings and that there is never a boring class session with him. On the other hand, it was an exhausting class; who would've thought that these one week things can be so draining?! Well, they are, and I found myself to be quite tired after each day.

I'm quite confident that it still hasn't sunk in that this is my last year of schooling for the foreseeable future. A bunch of my friends are already talking about what they'll be doing this summer, where they're working and all that. When I think about myself, I realize that I won't be looking for a summer job anymore. When I walk out of here on the last weekend of April, that'll be it. I'm done! In some ways, I want to give myself some time off - to have a few months to bum around before really starting to look for a church; but I also understand that if a church is hiring now, they'll probably want to have the position filled by the summer so the new pastor can go in around August and get accustomed to things before the year really kicks in by September. So while I'm still in school, I'm going to really have to start thinking about this job searching process relatively soon if I want to get ahead of the game.

I have entered into yet another phase of wanting to buy a bunch of clothes. There is probably at least one time every year where I grow an obsession about the fashion stuff. I almost never succumb to these trends, mostly because I just don't have the money to be buying so many clothes, and that my body type doesn't fit a lot of these styles, but they sure are fun to follow and read up on. This time around, I probably have some legitimate reason to actually diversify my closet a little bit because I'm going to need these clothes when I work in a church. Sure, I can probably get away with with I have now most of the time, but it's nice to change it up once in a while. I'm a bit lacking on the formal wear, so I'll probably be looking mostly into that. Just great, eh? The clothes I need most also cost the most. Maybe I'll take a "personal day" in the next while and go on a major shopping spree. Just maybe.

Now that we're two months into 2014, I am somewhat conflicted about the outlook of the rest of the year. I am really excited about this year because I think there is huge potential for this year to be an amazing year. However, I also feel that there's going to be some real struggles for myself personally. I've mentioned before that after having such a high point in life, you're bound to come down, and those generally don't feel that great. What this means is that I think this year is going to be met with a lot of confusion for me. I don't know what everyone else is feeling about this year, but that's the sense that is starting to be clear. Being confused probably doesn't mean the year will be bad, I just might not know what's really happening, raising tension and stress. There's going to be challenges that I frankly might not know how to approach. Maybe what it means is that I will really need to be in tune with the Holy Spirit, listening to his leading and just have complete faith in what God is doing. I'm excited.

I'm going to reiterate what I said in the beginning of January: this year is going to be what we make of it, so don't just sit back and wait for things to happen. Take an active approach and be assertive about what we do and the passions we have. Be you, and know that God made you the way you are because he has a specific role for you in this world that only you can do!