Not entirely sure where to start, but I've been home for about 5 days and I'm still not entirely sure where I am right now or how I got here. Coming home has always felt like a bit of a haven to me because of it being, well, my home. I've tried to keep my activities to a minimum this Christmas break; and while I have, it has been hard for me to mentally be completely relieved. Having only two weeks to be home, and then having to move (yet again) down to Calgary keeps me on a bit of an edge.
I still don't think ending my internship has quite sunk in yet. Rather, it's actually quite difficult to even still grasp that it happened. When the only real tangible evidence that I've actually been on this internship is that my car has logged a couple thousand more kilometres and that my bank account suddenly got a bit fatter, you kind of hope that there's actual progress made other than just the miles you've added onto your life.
In my case, I really hope that what I've learned and how I grew didn't just stay in Saskatchewan. It would be criminal of me if I left who I had become back there. The challenge for me, then, is to try to learn to fly on my own again - this time in a different way.
I've been telling people that I really want my schooling to end so I can work, and that still holds true. Let's hope I can follow through and not get too eager or ahead of myself.
Happy holidays!
Saturday, December 28, 2013
Sunday, December 22, 2013
That's A Wrap
I'm honestly overwhelmed. This entire last week of my internship has been a crazy hurricane where I barely even had time to actually sit down and think about things. It's not even that late, but as I wait for my hair to dry from the shower, I'll write this one story that basically sums up my internship.
I needed to look into student loans for my last semester of school because my dad can't pay for all three of my brother, sister and my own's tuition without going into dangerous territory financially. So I did all the research needed, and basically only needed to apply. However, I pretty much forgot about it until a few days ago. Pushing it so close to Christmas time with almost anything is never a good idea. So, I had some concerns.
At the end of my internship, which was today, I knew that the church would take a love offering to give to me. And while I did expect some people to give me some, I didn't think it'd be more than a few hundred dollars at most. In the back of my mind, I also thought to myself, what if God wanted me to forget about student loans because there would be enough money from the love offering to pay off my tuition? I then thought that it'd be ridiculous. How can anyone realisitically expect people to give you upwards of 5 grand? So I dismissed the thought. God said to me, "watch this."
I am now staring at a cheque handed to me that has $5000 on it. When Greg announced to the church how much was given to me, I was so overwhelmed. I was already standing at the front to receive this cheque, and I was so humbled I couldn't hold my tears back anymore. So Greg handed me the cheque, and before he gave the benediction, whispered to me, "you're worth every penny." I just about lost it. But I had to get it together as quick as I could, because I had to go out to serve the cake. So I haven't even had the chance to process what just happened.
Now, I'm sitting in my bed with all my things packed, ready to leave first thing tomorrow morning. I still can't comprehend that I had been given almost $6000 between my last week of work and the love offering.
God is good. There really is nothing more that I can say. Thank you.
I needed to look into student loans for my last semester of school because my dad can't pay for all three of my brother, sister and my own's tuition without going into dangerous territory financially. So I did all the research needed, and basically only needed to apply. However, I pretty much forgot about it until a few days ago. Pushing it so close to Christmas time with almost anything is never a good idea. So, I had some concerns.
At the end of my internship, which was today, I knew that the church would take a love offering to give to me. And while I did expect some people to give me some, I didn't think it'd be more than a few hundred dollars at most. In the back of my mind, I also thought to myself, what if God wanted me to forget about student loans because there would be enough money from the love offering to pay off my tuition? I then thought that it'd be ridiculous. How can anyone realisitically expect people to give you upwards of 5 grand? So I dismissed the thought. God said to me, "watch this."
I am now staring at a cheque handed to me that has $5000 on it. When Greg announced to the church how much was given to me, I was so overwhelmed. I was already standing at the front to receive this cheque, and I was so humbled I couldn't hold my tears back anymore. So Greg handed me the cheque, and before he gave the benediction, whispered to me, "you're worth every penny." I just about lost it. But I had to get it together as quick as I could, because I had to go out to serve the cake. So I haven't even had the chance to process what just happened.
Now, I'm sitting in my bed with all my things packed, ready to leave first thing tomorrow morning. I still can't comprehend that I had been given almost $6000 between my last week of work and the love offering.
God is good. There really is nothing more that I can say. Thank you.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
December Daze
I'm taking a bit of a break from my preparation for my final sermon here in Assiniboia as an intern. We're into the second week of advent, and my topic is about Jesus being a better judge. This whole series of topics for this year's advent at this church is pretty interesting, and I like it a lot. It's a bit harder for me to prepare for because it's a little beyond my natural interests in terms of things to talk about in the Bible. However, I am thankful that from reading through the book of Judges a couple times, I've really found an interest for the book.
So I've only got two and a half week left in this internship, but there is no slowing down! Because people are busy during this time of year, some of my helpers in Club DJ are away, so I've been needing to take over for some of the things that they are normally in charge of. I'm just glad that I have enough experience in working with kids that I am not BSing this ministry.
On top of preaching and running Club DJ, there's several Christmas functions that I'll be participating in. Somtimes I wonder why people would ask me to do something for these types of community events because I have lived here for seven months and really hold no reputation in the community at all. So, I guess that in many ways, being asked is quite the honour for me. Speaking of being honored, I found out that because of what I've been able to do here, this church is already looking into another potential intern next summer/fall (aw yeah). That's really awesome for me to hear. The only thing I need to caution, though they probably already know, is that no matter how the next inern does here, they can't compare him to me. Whether he makes me look like a scrub or vice versa, it'll be important to let him develop his own connections and impact in this community. But because the people here are so good, they'll probably be able to do just that.
A few weeks back, I was asked to preach at NEAC at the end of the month, right after Christmas. I thought about it, and actually got pretty excited about it. In the end, though, I chose to decline this invitation because, at this point in my life, I think spending time with my family and being able to relax is a little more important for me. It's not that I don't get to spend time with family if I had to preach, but I'm not at a point where preparing for a message during the week I need to preach is comfortable for me yet. It's actually quite crazy. I've been nervous for things before, but my days leading up to when I preach on a Sunday, it's a feeling I've never felt before - it happens every single time.
Well, my last official day here in Assiniboia is the 22nd. I do hope that I will be home on the evening of the 23rd, because my dad deserves a couple days to rest too. He'll be driving down to help me move back up.
I'll probably blog again before I'm done here; but in the case that I don't, it's been a blast, Assiniboia. I never thought that my life would've lead me here, but I'm so glad it did; and if I had the chance to redo my life so that I'd end up here again for my internship, I would do it again 10/10 times.
Stay warm.
So I've only got two and a half week left in this internship, but there is no slowing down! Because people are busy during this time of year, some of my helpers in Club DJ are away, so I've been needing to take over for some of the things that they are normally in charge of. I'm just glad that I have enough experience in working with kids that I am not BSing this ministry.
On top of preaching and running Club DJ, there's several Christmas functions that I'll be participating in. Somtimes I wonder why people would ask me to do something for these types of community events because I have lived here for seven months and really hold no reputation in the community at all. So, I guess that in many ways, being asked is quite the honour for me. Speaking of being honored, I found out that because of what I've been able to do here, this church is already looking into another potential intern next summer/fall (aw yeah). That's really awesome for me to hear. The only thing I need to caution, though they probably already know, is that no matter how the next inern does here, they can't compare him to me. Whether he makes me look like a scrub or vice versa, it'll be important to let him develop his own connections and impact in this community. But because the people here are so good, they'll probably be able to do just that.
A few weeks back, I was asked to preach at NEAC at the end of the month, right after Christmas. I thought about it, and actually got pretty excited about it. In the end, though, I chose to decline this invitation because, at this point in my life, I think spending time with my family and being able to relax is a little more important for me. It's not that I don't get to spend time with family if I had to preach, but I'm not at a point where preparing for a message during the week I need to preach is comfortable for me yet. It's actually quite crazy. I've been nervous for things before, but my days leading up to when I preach on a Sunday, it's a feeling I've never felt before - it happens every single time.
Well, my last official day here in Assiniboia is the 22nd. I do hope that I will be home on the evening of the 23rd, because my dad deserves a couple days to rest too. He'll be driving down to help me move back up.
I'll probably blog again before I'm done here; but in the case that I don't, it's been a blast, Assiniboia. I never thought that my life would've lead me here, but I'm so glad it did; and if I had the chance to redo my life so that I'd end up here again for my internship, I would do it again 10/10 times.
Stay warm.
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