I'm quite happy with my internship so far. The first month was great! The second one will be busy, I can tell you that much already. Being busy can often mean more difficult as well just because of the sheer amount of tasks opens opportunity for much more mistakes and correction being needed. That's okay, though, I think; this is why I am on this internship, so I can make the mistake and learn from it.
I think the highlight of my first month is pretty obvious: branding calves. I knew I'd get put into a farm at some time during this internship, I just didn't know that I'd be doing what I did to those poor things. It was an experience of a life time, one that I probably wouldn't really want to do again. I'd be all for watching and hanging out with the people while they do it, but I don't think I really want to wrestle them and do the branding part.
Ministry-wise, I'm starting to take on more responsibility, and I'm glad that I get to do so. It's split pretty well down the middle between things that I want to do and things that will push me. I've been given the chance to be preaching next Sunday (June 30), so I should really start the actual prep work for my message.
Aside from those sorts of things, my days have been pretty chill over the last couple weeks. I'm really thankful that I got to go to Kau and Dorcas' wedding, too. Every time I go home, I learn something new about maturity and the whole idea of life moving forward. Life is so busy, that you don't need to be gone for a long time for people to learn to live without you. So, part of maturing and growing up for me has been to realize that the things that are important enough to me that I would go out of my way for are not necessarily reciprocated. People are all connected, and once one side of that connection starts to break up, it can be tough for the person on the other side. That's why I've really started to understand the importance of relationships being a full commitment between two different parties - at all levels, not just from one person to another. This lesson, is probably going to be one of the biggest things that I will need to remember when I go into ministry. The goal is for me to be completely committed to Christ and to the church, in hopes that the church can also be completely committed. Funny how the relationships I have with people are teaching me the things that I need to do or not do as I near the beginning of my working career.
Anyhow, that's about all I really have for now. I'm mostly doing quite well right now, but I do have to admit that there's still some loneliness and sorrow deep inside of me that I often cannot find an outlet for. I think most of it stems from a selfishness, or my desire to boost my ego, that I've always had in my life. So I know that they are just the things in me that I'm not strong in, and hope that these things can be fixed soon!
Happy longest day of the year!
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