Through The Phone

Wow. I don't know if I've ever mentioned this, but I hate talking on the phone. I communicate so much better when it is face-to-face then when it is over the phone - especially with people I don't know, or have just met.

I remember my first over-the-phone interview with Athletes In Action a few years ago... Sorry, scratch that. I remember my first phone interview with Urban Promise in grade 12. It was some of the most awkward conversations that I've had. The only thing that was relevant about that phone conversation was after I hung up. I hung up, and I had no idea what I was saying during the whole thing.

With the interview type of environments, I get nervous. I don't get nervous to the point where I don't know what I'm saying in face-to-face interviews. But when it comes to speaking on the phone, I tend to stutter a lot more, talk in circles, and repeat myself a lot. What gives?

I'm not too sure what the impression of me is for the person on the other side of the line whenever I talk to them. I hope I don't come across as someone that I'm not - that's all I ask for. You could say that I'm just giving myself a hard time, but I would say that communication is something I've needed to work on all my life. I'm not exactly crystal clear when I want to present information (why else am I vague all the time when I blog? Haha).

So why have I suddenly brought this up in a blog post? I just got off the phone with a pastor that I could potentially be working with next year and am absolutely disappointed with the way I carried my half of the conversation. Brutal. I am 100% confident that if we had met face-to-face, I would have been a million times better in the interaction. And because I know that there is exactly zero people that want to listen to me rant about how I hate myself for being such a nob throughout asking my questions and not being clear of what exactly it is I want to know, I decided to put it here. Not entirely sure what this will materialize into; but if it's just a chuckle at how lame I am, that's fine.

Anyway, the conversation is done with now and is out of my control. I just hope that this church can come to like me if I can indeed get to work with them next year. First impressions are always so important, so the one I just made better not have been a hideous one.

As far as the practicum goes, I'm not exactly sure what I expect out of it. I have a good feeling that the people that are dealing with me knows what they want me to get out of the thing than I do. But I guess I'll just pray about it and know that God usually opens my heart to something good. I'm definitely really excited to do it though. At the end of the day, I love meeting new people and seeing what God is doing in different communities across the land. Just the thought of all these things can jack me up pretty good.

Onto other things, I wrote my second final today; it sucked. This psychology class just has no amount of care for, in my mind. I have one more on Monday, and then I will be ready to come home after all my practicum things get finalized. So, yes, even though I want to be home earlier, I think it is good that I stay the extra few days so I can get things ready for next Fall.

I am very excited to be coming home! (=