This Time

Four months ago, I was packing up to leave the city I grew up in to start a new life. Today, I am packing some of my stuff to go back to Edmonton. It feels pretty strange. I'm not sure how it's going to be like or how the reception of me going back is going to be like. I've gotten used to Calgary and I would think that life has generally been going uphill since I settled in.

I guess I'll just recap a bit on what my semester has been like. The first couple days after moving here were probably the hardest days I've ever had to live. You can go through all these ups and downs and merry-go-rounds in your life, but nothing quite feels like moving out. I think that even if you're so glad you're moving out, that liberating feeling is pretty amazing. It didn't take too long for me to settle into my life here, though, all thanks to some pretty cool kids and parents that are trying to make things easier for me. Things took a while for me to get going though, as I'd been out of school for a year and being in a completely new environment knowing nobody. But all in all, it was pretty sweet.

Academically, things have been decent I have to admit. I've never been or ever will be an A student, but I do believe I can be in the upper echelon of my classes. I've really learned my strengths and weaknesses in terms of school this term. I now know what I need to get better at, and what I'm already alright at. It's a lot more helpful when I'm doing something that I am so much more comfortable in doing. In terms of results, I don't think my marks will be where I had hoped, but they're decent. I only took four classes, and I'd have to say that two are in the A area, while the other two are probably closer to the B- or C. I needed to maintain a 2.0 GPA, and I think I should be fine there. I've been surprised a couple times with some of the marks I've gotten on my papers, but it's just given me some confidence in knowing that I can do well in school.

I'm going to say, flat out, that the best part of moving to Calgary so far has been the church I attend. Because it's a tiny community, you're going to stick out like a sore thumb like I did when you're new. Especially if you're someone like me, and appear to carry some "ability" in doing things, people are going to notice you. The people have been great to me, and hopefully they like who I am. There are still lots of things about me they don't really know, but I'm sure there will be a chance that I get to show those aspects of me eventually. It goes to show that it doesn't really matter where you are, but if there is a healthy church with healthy people that love God, the feelings of joy are going to remain; because after all, it is the same God we worship.

So it feels a bit strange packing again, but this time to be going home for three weeks. There is some anxiety and some nervous excitement because of the uncertainty of the circumstances that surround me. Hopefully I haven't really changed that much and I'm still a bearable person. One thing I'm really going to miss is that I have to leave Taylor here in Calgary, so it gets no love for three weeks. On the other hand, I get to play with my Eclipse again. But I've gotten so attached to my Taylor, it's going to be sad. Yes. This is what a dork does - get attached to my baby.

I'm coming home guys!

And for those keeping track, I'm giving it a little more time; I need confirmation before I do anything else. It's risky business! (How's that for vagueness Ps. Jenn? =D)