Settle Down

I just got called emo. So I must redeem myself. I am not emo! I'm not! .. okay maybe just a little, but that's all over now. It was tough getting passed the initial emotions and all that fun stuff in my first day living away from home, so the only place I was able to vent was this blog. Unfortunately, I probably thought that I was on a roll with the way I was unleashing everything, so maybe all I did was blindly type without really knowing or keeping track of what was coming out. But I think it's reasonable. After all, I did just give up everything I've lived and worked for to start a brand new life. I had to close the book, put it aside, and take out a new one. It isn't just a matter of turning the page or starting a new chapter, it's an entirely new book.

Anyway, I'm actually kind of surprised how quickly I got over everything. One emo day, and the next day I'm back being my plain old destructive self. All it took was destroying a couple kids in Wii Sports Bowling to get me back to the ball. Nah. Actually, it was more than that. I know sometimes I make it seem that I'm living this life by myself, and that there's no one to share it with or any of that sappy sad story; but, at the end of the day, I just want to let everyone know how grateful I am for even having me cross your mind, even if just a second. A lot of people have sacrificed a lot to get me to where I am because of my incompetence, so there is no amount of thanks that I could say that will ever make up for it. I think that it is just that sometimes, I see how incredibly high expectations are for me, and believe me they're pretty high, that I get caught up in it and it seems that I'll never be able to get there just to let everyone down. I seem to have a huge reputation and people think very highly of me, and I don't even know why. Because, based on what I know I'm like, I would let people down time after time.

The one thing that has stayed the same is how good God has been to me. Anything that is any worthwhile in my life, God has played some role in it, and usually a huge one at that. Whether it's through people, "random" circumstances, whatever else you can think of, it's all come from God; and I owe my life to everyone.

But anyways, I absolutely love the kids that I live with. They are freakin' hilarious and awesome. They can easily make my day, and I'm glad that I'm gonna get to know them a bit this year. So far, I've pretty much settled in, and other than my books and some shoes, I'm all unpacked and settled in. I've had a couple days to get used to the way things will look like around the house, and I'm satisfied with the space that I have.

I just hope everyone can get used to my character and personality; let's face it, I'm not the type of person that the traditionalists and the proper will approve of. Of course I can do that, but it just ain't me. Of course not.

So, calm your horses, and have fun with this upcoming school year because it's going to be legen...