Loud and Clear

It has been in recent times that I've felt my calling to go into ministry being stronger than ever. I will be honest and admit that throughout the year of 2009 since I've accepted this "calling" that there are always times of doubt. When I talk to people and hear their opinions, they have their own experience and their own input to give, which influence mine - of course. There are people telling me to keep pursuing music, but a different style; there are people telling me to get a degree before I go into seminary; there are people that tell me to work a couple years before I go do Bible school so I don't burn out. I respect what everyone has to say because they've obviously had their experiences that cause them to think certain ways, and I can't change that. People don't just throw out random BS at you and assume that you'll buy it, especially when it's regarding something as important as your career.

So my final answer to anyone and everyone who wonders is this: I'm going into Bible college as soon as I can. The current goal is that, in September of 2010, I will be attending Ambrose University. Life does like to do things differently, so I can't guarantee, 100%, that I will be in school by that time. I know, that I've been telling people this for a while now, but I just want to make it official.

What led me to posting this - and I need to hurry 'cause I want to go to bed - is that there have been situations recently that I've encountered that make me want to be involved. There is something in my heart that just wants to put itself into helping reaching out to people. I'm going to be trying my best to be as involved as I can, to be as experienced as I can, in order to fulfill this passion inside of me. As I am only one person, I can only live one life - unless I'm Batman - and it hurts me to know that I can't relate to everyone to try and help them in their life. I desperately want to help those who might be struggling or something and just be available to them to talk to or for them to vent to. I want to be able to know, even though I won't be able to feel exactly, what it's like to have certain experiences. I'm so lucky that I was born and raised a Christian, and I had just realized this privilege this past summer. Because it's something that's been stamped into my life, I don't really have that vulnerability of knowing what it's like to not be a Christian; and that's why I want to hear people's stories, and know where they're coming from and where they're headed.

Yep, that's about all I really have for now. It's been a good couple weeks for me, and I don't have much to complain about. Just felt like getting some thoughts out of my head before I went night night.

Stay strong; help is on the way.