Gone But Not Dead

First of all, let me mention that I love the fact that I woke up and saw the snow outside. It took me a while, but I had to remember that we are in the month of May. We haven't had snow in May for a few years, so it just makes me so much more happier to know that my summer is, yet, furthermore delayed unitl further notice. Why don't we just skip right to winter, again?

But anyways, I read what I wrote yesterday, and it is really hard to follow and understand. My attempt at writing differently failed me, which means I will have to resort back to my noob ways of doing things: direct and straight forward. The entry also got rather long, so I couldn't write about the other interesting stuff that happened.

Just to present what turned out to be my post yesterday a little differently, I think it's vital to give a bit of a prequel, or preamble, to it. First of all, it isn't a story that I just made up from under the cork tree. And no, it is not about me. The story is, indeed, true, but I wanted to keep it as annonymous as possible, because what if the person I was writing about came across and read it? Wouldn't be too pretty after that. Afterward, I was thinking to myself about my situation, and where I stand in the picture, and I see that everyone has one of these people that they know, too. I firmly believe that you know someone who is being described in what I blogged about yesterday. This person, like I said, lives in a very small world, and has his or her eyes only set on themself, with little care for anyone else. Innocence is what created this, so called, monster, and it links to ignorance. People say that ignorance is bliss, and I don't disagree, but there is clearly a line that you have to draw before you turn into one of these people I deemed as "the boy". So, in the end, I think that even though everyone falls at one point in time, or another, you cannot completely kill, what used to be, their former self. Just look at Sylar and Nathan in Heroes, yay! I'd like to think that I am a living example of that. My old bad habits, and such, still get the best of me, but I think the difference in me now, is that I am aware of who I am in comparison to the rest of the world: not very significant, as to what I had before.

Well, anyways, maybe that clears up some things, maybe it doesnt, but oh well, I hate it when I have awesome ideas, but then they don't translate well materialistically.

In other news, I will be in Vancouver from Friday to Monday. Realistically, I'm only there for Saturday and Sunday, I will be driving the other two days. Wonderful. I, occassionally, love for a road trip, but I think this time around, I just don't really look forward to it. On the bright side, though, I will be able to take part in my friends' wedding, and I am pretty happy for them because they are the lead couple to get this whole 'weddings bonanza', throughout the summer, going.

I also want to write another song, but I'm not very good at it, haha.