"The wheels keep turning but the feeling is gone." This is exactly how I feel about school as of right now. Everyday I go through the same motions of going to school, but I could care less about anything that is going on.
At the same time, I get more and more excited about pursuing bible college somewhere. When this gets mixed in with my apathy at the UofA, it's like trying to look left and right at the same time as one pereson.
The first week back after reading week and I don't think it could've gone by more slowly. I fall asleep, literally, almost every class. And then, once in a while, I would get some really weird and messed up thoughts about the most random things ever. It feels almost as if I am high off of some shrooms or something. I would be sitting there daydreaming, then suddenly this weird thought coming through my mind and it makes me go "woah."
One thing that I am pumped up for is the NHL trade deadline. The deadline is this next Wednesday March 4. I had already planned everything: skip class, set up 2 of my TVs and just sit in my couch with my laptop and wait for trades to happen. However, as the freak I am, I get blindsided by some gay thing called school. Turns out that I have to hand in a music assignment that day as well has starting the film study in my english class. I could get a friend to hand in my music assignment for me, but I just cannot afford to miss the start of our film study because I have to do a little presentation on it. CRAP. Such a bummer to have to face this, right? For a loser like me, that would be a yes. I am going to be forced to refer to my cellphone throughout the day to receive lame old text messages for every trade that happens. This means that I won't be getting the analysis and stuff that I really want.
I am feeling Ambrose University? I should really try to make more of an effort to get some things done, and fast.
Friday, February 27, 2009
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Phresh
I haven't dreaded anything this badly since I took piano lessons back in early high school, but yes, you guessed right, I don't want to go back to school tomorrow! I am kind of feeling that I need a new start. Perhaps I am too comfortable living the life I am now, and that causes things to get old and boring for me. A new start that brings about a fresh feeling in my life would be pretty awesome. As for what this change is, I don't know yet; I'm assuming that it's just doing something I'm comfortable doing while being able to stay close to home.
I am faced with two more months of this UofA business that I have to endure. I am so ready to throw in the towel and fail all my courses, because I am just dreading it THAT much. I am beginning to feel that Ambrose University is a good place for me to go to now. This is because, first and foremost, it is closer to home. I will also be able to build my theology there and then work on the musical part, or whatever else, as more a side thing. However, all this being said, I have yet to do any research on these colleges, so I don't know any specifics just yet. Somebody kick my in the bum so I can get off my lazy butt and find out these things. I also forgot to get my driving stuff set straight, crap! What a productive reading week, eh.
*Sigh*, here we go again.
I am faced with two more months of this UofA business that I have to endure. I am so ready to throw in the towel and fail all my courses, because I am just dreading it THAT much. I am beginning to feel that Ambrose University is a good place for me to go to now. This is because, first and foremost, it is closer to home. I will also be able to build my theology there and then work on the musical part, or whatever else, as more a side thing. However, all this being said, I have yet to do any research on these colleges, so I don't know any specifics just yet. Somebody kick my in the bum so I can get off my lazy butt and find out these things. I also forgot to get my driving stuff set straight, crap! What a productive reading week, eh.
*Sigh*, here we go again.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
Complement
First off, I cannot, in any possible method, express my frustration and disappointment towards the Edmonton Oilers after tonights loss to the Calgary 'lames. Considering that we SHOULD have won the game in regulation, then having the 4 on 3 powerplay in overtime and not capitalizing, and the cream on top, where NONE of our three shooters in the shootout released a shot. This is all I am going to say, because if I go on, I will just be more disappointed.
Anyhow, before I really get onto what I want to write, my ear is broken )= It is acting up on me right now, too, actually. I'm not sure what happened, but my left ear, when quiet, constantly hears low rumbling noises even when there is no noise. The noise does not go away and drives me insane. That is all.
About time I got to what I wanted to say. An interesting thought occured to me when I was looking back at a couple things; I found an odd way to evaluate who I am as a person, haha. In a main course dish, I would be the "side dish" that you get for free and included in your main dish. Let's use a rib eye steak for example, just because I had one tonight. Usually, when you order these main entrees, you get choices of things such as assorted veggies, potatoes, rice, etc. That's what I would label myself as. So yes, in a sense, I am saying that I am that cauliflower that you eat first to get out of the way so you can enjoy your big ass steak. I'm one of those things you get on your plate that you don't really care much for, it's there and you know it, but it never stands out too much.
So what does this have to do with me? Well, I'm just like that potato, or the coleslaw. In a group of people doing life, I'm just there; you know I'm there, and you know what I bring, but I'm just there as a complement to whatever is happening. I'm no main attraction or the rib eye steak, I just so happened to be included in this deal to give the little bit I have to offer. And to be honest, I don't mind it all that much. I don't like too much attention, and I like to watch people; feeling included is a given for everyone, but I never stick out like those people that you seem to remember for some reason even though you never ever talked to them before. As a huge introvert, I wonder how hard I will hit myself for being so weird and coming up with this stupid analogy, lol.
At last, I am very sad and disappointed to say that reading week is almost over. I am dreading school, beyond belief. However, I have to say that if it was not for this reading week, I would not have learned some very important things about myself. I think that as for now, I will go and be depressed about the failure of the Oilers and the thought of having to go back to school to write midterms.
Bye bye, world.
Anyhow, before I really get onto what I want to write, my ear is broken )= It is acting up on me right now, too, actually. I'm not sure what happened, but my left ear, when quiet, constantly hears low rumbling noises even when there is no noise. The noise does not go away and drives me insane. That is all.
About time I got to what I wanted to say. An interesting thought occured to me when I was looking back at a couple things; I found an odd way to evaluate who I am as a person, haha. In a main course dish, I would be the "side dish" that you get for free and included in your main dish. Let's use a rib eye steak for example, just because I had one tonight. Usually, when you order these main entrees, you get choices of things such as assorted veggies, potatoes, rice, etc. That's what I would label myself as. So yes, in a sense, I am saying that I am that cauliflower that you eat first to get out of the way so you can enjoy your big ass steak. I'm one of those things you get on your plate that you don't really care much for, it's there and you know it, but it never stands out too much.
So what does this have to do with me? Well, I'm just like that potato, or the coleslaw. In a group of people doing life, I'm just there; you know I'm there, and you know what I bring, but I'm just there as a complement to whatever is happening. I'm no main attraction or the rib eye steak, I just so happened to be included in this deal to give the little bit I have to offer. And to be honest, I don't mind it all that much. I don't like too much attention, and I like to watch people; feeling included is a given for everyone, but I never stick out like those people that you seem to remember for some reason even though you never ever talked to them before. As a huge introvert, I wonder how hard I will hit myself for being so weird and coming up with this stupid analogy, lol.
At last, I am very sad and disappointed to say that reading week is almost over. I am dreading school, beyond belief. However, I have to say that if it was not for this reading week, I would not have learned some very important things about myself. I think that as for now, I will go and be depressed about the failure of the Oilers and the thought of having to go back to school to write midterms.
Bye bye, world.
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Ready. Steady. Go.
Two posts in one day, seperated by one sleep. Awesome. I am setting records left and right this month.
I was sitting on my couch with a guitar in my lap. I was looking through some worship music and playing them as I went. Then, all of a sudden, a thought crossed my mind that, if all goes well, I could potentially become a pastor in some years. It was somewhat of a blind vision that I saw - whatever that means. But I saw myself in a church, maybe as a pastor or whatever I was, and it got me all excited. Something that I love to do is get to know people and maybe even be a bit of an influence in the growth of them. I've already stated before that everything we come across plays some role in our lives, no matter how big or small. So, I guess that, in a sense, what I pictured in my mind was a vision that can quite potentially be true.
I know it is true that the path of a "spiritual leader" is extremely challenging, but I feel that my mindset is headed in the right direction to be able to endure what life may throw at me down the road. Being excited for something is good, but I know that I cannot throw away everything else other than the good because then I'd just be ignorant and foolish.
However, I actually can admit that I could not be happier that I know what it is I want to pursue now. Things take time, and it took a bit longer for me to find out, but hey, I would not trade the experiences I've gained for anything in the world.
Alright, that is really all I wanted to say. Now, let's hope the Oilers don't get killed TOO badly )=
I was sitting on my couch with a guitar in my lap. I was looking through some worship music and playing them as I went. Then, all of a sudden, a thought crossed my mind that, if all goes well, I could potentially become a pastor in some years. It was somewhat of a blind vision that I saw - whatever that means. But I saw myself in a church, maybe as a pastor or whatever I was, and it got me all excited. Something that I love to do is get to know people and maybe even be a bit of an influence in the growth of them. I've already stated before that everything we come across plays some role in our lives, no matter how big or small. So, I guess that, in a sense, what I pictured in my mind was a vision that can quite potentially be true.
I know it is true that the path of a "spiritual leader" is extremely challenging, but I feel that my mindset is headed in the right direction to be able to endure what life may throw at me down the road. Being excited for something is good, but I know that I cannot throw away everything else other than the good because then I'd just be ignorant and foolish.
However, I actually can admit that I could not be happier that I know what it is I want to pursue now. Things take time, and it took a bit longer for me to find out, but hey, I would not trade the experiences I've gained for anything in the world.
Alright, that is really all I wanted to say. Now, let's hope the Oilers don't get killed TOO badly )=
Monday, February 16, 2009
Mayer of Mr.A-Z
No, this has nothing to do with transformers. But after the last couple days of playing guitar, I think I am almost hitting my prime for playing guitars. I don't entirely see myself getting too much better skill-wise on the guitar. I can still grow musically, because there are a lot of things I don't know. However, my fingers can only move so fast and I can only be so creative, so I don't think I will be a rockstar guitarist, sorry guys.
I am in my fourth year of playing guitar and I haven't really gotten any better in 8 or 9 months. The last time I saw myself get significantly better was when I discovered Jason Mraz's guitaring style and technique. Thereafter, I took up the challenge to be able to play this "pick-and-flick" technique, which John Mayer also uses in a couple of songs like "Stop This Train" and "The Heart of Life."
Before I go anywhere else, I want to say that, as good as John Mayer is, Jason Mraz is better overall. I have had a couple discussions with a few friends about the two JM's and which is better. For those of you that do know Jason Mraz, you would know that I am largely influenced by his music. I will have to put my bias aside for this comparison. First and foremost, when I mention these two JMs, obviously John Mayer is the one that is more popular whereas Mraz gets the reaction of "who the heck is he?" The unknown of Mraz has decreased lately because of his huge hit "I'm Yours", but that is not what we are to be discussing right now.
Okay, I'm done with my preamble, this is my take on Mraz vs. Mayer. The response I get from people who know both Mraz and Mayer can easily point out that John has the success to back himself up. I will give the point of success to John Mayer because it is a legit argument that I simply cannot argue against. After the success factor, you have to break it down to them as individuals. John Mayer's strongest point is obviously his guitar. I will admit right here that John Mayer is one of the most amazing guitarists that is going mainstream, ever. Having been to his concert once, you can say that Mayer's guitaring has neared perfection and is almost flawless. In comparison, Jason Mraz's strongest asset is his voice. This is somewhat of a sketchy thing to say because Mraz's voice is so highly underrated, even though it's what gets most people, that people will easily say Mayer's guitar is better than Mraz's singing. I would like to disagree. First of all, Mraz's voice itself is perfect, he has perfect control over his pitch and has an incredible range. A couple of songs that shows how amazing his vocals can best tell you what I mean. Listen to one or a few of Common Pleasure, The Remedy (Live), Only Human, Unfold, among others. After listening to them, try to sing them yourself. If you think you can do it, record yourself and then compare it to Mraz. There is no way in hell that many people can sing and control their voice like Jason Mraz. This is what I meant by his voice being underrated. So, Mayer's guitar equals that of Mraz's vocals. Next.
John Mayer has had his voice criticized in the past of not being a very good singer. To date, he is still not the greatest singer; he has gotten a helluva lot better than he was in the past, but still not the greatest. When I say singing, this does not mean songwriting, it is his vocal abilities. Jason Mraz's secondary is his guitar. Again, Mraz's guitar ability is underrated. If you watch some live videos of mraz, he has some incredible chord shapes and little things that he can do with his guitar. Mraz is primarily an acoustic/classical guitarist, but he can rip it up on the electric too, hence Common Pleasure. One thing that puts Mraz's guitar over Mayer's singing is the way Mraz's fingers can move and shape themselves. I still have a lot of trouble playing some Jason Mraz chords because my fingers just don't move that way ><. So, in terms of secondaries, I have to put Mraz's guitaring over Mayer's vocals. Don't get me wrong, it's close, but I find that I'd rather listen to Mraz's guitaring over Mayer's voice anyday of the week.
Live performance, Jason Mraz CLEARLY over John Mayer, no contest. Jason Mraz has one of the best live performances currently on this planet.
In summary, I have to put Jason Mraz as a better and more talented artist than John Mayer because, let's face it, Mraz could go mainstream and rip up the charts if he wanted to. However, in the end, I just think it's personal preference on who you think is better; and I, for one, chooses Mraz over Mayer because I simply do not get bored of Mraz, and that he continually surprises me with his songs and what he can do. This is not an attack at John Mayer whatsoever, because I am still a fan of him and his music.
Hope this provides some insight.
I am in my fourth year of playing guitar and I haven't really gotten any better in 8 or 9 months. The last time I saw myself get significantly better was when I discovered Jason Mraz's guitaring style and technique. Thereafter, I took up the challenge to be able to play this "pick-and-flick" technique, which John Mayer also uses in a couple of songs like "Stop This Train" and "The Heart of Life."
Before I go anywhere else, I want to say that, as good as John Mayer is, Jason Mraz is better overall. I have had a couple discussions with a few friends about the two JM's and which is better. For those of you that do know Jason Mraz, you would know that I am largely influenced by his music. I will have to put my bias aside for this comparison. First and foremost, when I mention these two JMs, obviously John Mayer is the one that is more popular whereas Mraz gets the reaction of "who the heck is he?" The unknown of Mraz has decreased lately because of his huge hit "I'm Yours", but that is not what we are to be discussing right now.
Okay, I'm done with my preamble, this is my take on Mraz vs. Mayer. The response I get from people who know both Mraz and Mayer can easily point out that John has the success to back himself up. I will give the point of success to John Mayer because it is a legit argument that I simply cannot argue against. After the success factor, you have to break it down to them as individuals. John Mayer's strongest point is obviously his guitar. I will admit right here that John Mayer is one of the most amazing guitarists that is going mainstream, ever. Having been to his concert once, you can say that Mayer's guitaring has neared perfection and is almost flawless. In comparison, Jason Mraz's strongest asset is his voice. This is somewhat of a sketchy thing to say because Mraz's voice is so highly underrated, even though it's what gets most people, that people will easily say Mayer's guitar is better than Mraz's singing. I would like to disagree. First of all, Mraz's voice itself is perfect, he has perfect control over his pitch and has an incredible range. A couple of songs that shows how amazing his vocals can best tell you what I mean. Listen to one or a few of Common Pleasure, The Remedy (Live), Only Human, Unfold, among others. After listening to them, try to sing them yourself. If you think you can do it, record yourself and then compare it to Mraz. There is no way in hell that many people can sing and control their voice like Jason Mraz. This is what I meant by his voice being underrated. So, Mayer's guitar equals that of Mraz's vocals. Next.
John Mayer has had his voice criticized in the past of not being a very good singer. To date, he is still not the greatest singer; he has gotten a helluva lot better than he was in the past, but still not the greatest. When I say singing, this does not mean songwriting, it is his vocal abilities. Jason Mraz's secondary is his guitar. Again, Mraz's guitar ability is underrated. If you watch some live videos of mraz, he has some incredible chord shapes and little things that he can do with his guitar. Mraz is primarily an acoustic/classical guitarist, but he can rip it up on the electric too, hence Common Pleasure. One thing that puts Mraz's guitar over Mayer's singing is the way Mraz's fingers can move and shape themselves. I still have a lot of trouble playing some Jason Mraz chords because my fingers just don't move that way ><. So, in terms of secondaries, I have to put Mraz's guitaring over Mayer's vocals. Don't get me wrong, it's close, but I find that I'd rather listen to Mraz's guitaring over Mayer's voice anyday of the week.
Live performance, Jason Mraz CLEARLY over John Mayer, no contest. Jason Mraz has one of the best live performances currently on this planet.
In summary, I have to put Jason Mraz as a better and more talented artist than John Mayer because, let's face it, Mraz could go mainstream and rip up the charts if he wanted to. However, in the end, I just think it's personal preference on who you think is better; and I, for one, chooses Mraz over Mayer because I simply do not get bored of Mraz, and that he continually surprises me with his songs and what he can do. This is not an attack at John Mayer whatsoever, because I am still a fan of him and his music.
Hope this provides some insight.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Alive
Crap, my streak came to an end, oh well, you can't win 'em all.
Life seems so alive again! Ha ha. I am so glad that reading week is here. I have been waiting for some time off to do other things since forever. The week off started out pretty good so far. I am pretty glad I offered up our house for a little college "fellowship" time, it was definitely fun; we should do it again.
Welp, I don't remember what I wanted to write, except that I probably won't be sleeping for a while since I had to finish a can of coke.
Oilers are in decent shape right now, other than missing our top 2 puck moving defensemen. Lubo going down was already hard to swallow, and now Grebs is out too?! Dang man, this is not fair. The refs seem to be doing everything in their power to make us lose, too. Blah, whatever, I still think we will be fine come playoff time.
I need more practice playing guitar. I feel so rusty because I don't get to practice very much. I need an amp. I need to find a new style for myself, my playing gets repetitive, then old, then boring.
Yay! I'm so hyper. So alive. 5alive. Yummy.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I think I am better off spending this energy doing something else.. Like sleeping.
Life seems so alive again! Ha ha. I am so glad that reading week is here. I have been waiting for some time off to do other things since forever. The week off started out pretty good so far. I am pretty glad I offered up our house for a little college "fellowship" time, it was definitely fun; we should do it again.
Welp, I don't remember what I wanted to write, except that I probably won't be sleeping for a while since I had to finish a can of coke.
Oilers are in decent shape right now, other than missing our top 2 puck moving defensemen. Lubo going down was already hard to swallow, and now Grebs is out too?! Dang man, this is not fair. The refs seem to be doing everything in their power to make us lose, too. Blah, whatever, I still think we will be fine come playoff time.
I need more practice playing guitar. I feel so rusty because I don't get to practice very much. I need an amp. I need to find a new style for myself, my playing gets repetitive, then old, then boring.
Yay! I'm so hyper. So alive. 5alive. Yummy.
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I think I am better off spending this energy doing something else.. Like sleeping.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
In Wonder
Five game win streak, exactly what the Oilers need.
Since turning 18, everyday has been some sort of an adventure. Everything has been slightly off for the past five days or so. Off does not mean it's bad, just a little bit out of, I guess, routine.
Let me start off with yesterday's Oilers' game. Waison was nice enough to hook me up with the game against the Habs. You would think these tickets normally cost more since we're playing a team in the east. There were so many Canadien fans and they were so much louder than the Oilers' fans - or so it seemed. But the game was a blast and here is a random fact of the day: yesterday's Oilers' game was the first regular season game where I attended live and we won. It was a load of fun to go to this game.
I finished my english essay by halfassing it. I am a bit disappointed that I did not start this an extra day earlier so I could give myself an extra 5% cushion. However, I did manage to pull through in about 6 hours time on working on this.
One thing I do not want to do is to give up on the rest of this semester. I know that the UofA is not the place for me, but I don't want to just give up on everything and fail and waste my dad's money. It is a hard thing for me to do because it is so easy and tempting to just go "meh, I don't need this, so why come to class", but I know for my own sake, I should make something good out of this year.
One thing that I am not too fond of either is that it is getting cold again. I think we should just have consistantly cold weather for a couple months instead of having these little warm streaks. Global warming is really taking its toll on our planet and it's showing.
Tomorrow will be one of the slowest days for me, quite possibly. Not only is it the last day before reading week, but I have to do the dreadful music midterm that I have not been looking forward to. Another random thing is that my GTDSS is calling for me to wear her more, haha. I am still loyal to my SJD and want to finish it by August or September at the latest, but the GTDSS is just demanding time from me, lol.
I must remind myself to try to get another hockey game going, last time was far too fun and we need to do it again soon. Also, a reminder to do my driving stuff.
Reading week, here I come!
Since turning 18, everyday has been some sort of an adventure. Everything has been slightly off for the past five days or so. Off does not mean it's bad, just a little bit out of, I guess, routine.
Let me start off with yesterday's Oilers' game. Waison was nice enough to hook me up with the game against the Habs. You would think these tickets normally cost more since we're playing a team in the east. There were so many Canadien fans and they were so much louder than the Oilers' fans - or so it seemed. But the game was a blast and here is a random fact of the day: yesterday's Oilers' game was the first regular season game where I attended live and we won. It was a load of fun to go to this game.
I finished my english essay by halfassing it. I am a bit disappointed that I did not start this an extra day earlier so I could give myself an extra 5% cushion. However, I did manage to pull through in about 6 hours time on working on this.
One thing I do not want to do is to give up on the rest of this semester. I know that the UofA is not the place for me, but I don't want to just give up on everything and fail and waste my dad's money. It is a hard thing for me to do because it is so easy and tempting to just go "meh, I don't need this, so why come to class", but I know for my own sake, I should make something good out of this year.
One thing that I am not too fond of either is that it is getting cold again. I think we should just have consistantly cold weather for a couple months instead of having these little warm streaks. Global warming is really taking its toll on our planet and it's showing.
Tomorrow will be one of the slowest days for me, quite possibly. Not only is it the last day before reading week, but I have to do the dreadful music midterm that I have not been looking forward to. Another random thing is that my GTDSS is calling for me to wear her more, haha. I am still loyal to my SJD and want to finish it by August or September at the latest, but the GTDSS is just demanding time from me, lol.
I must remind myself to try to get another hockey game going, last time was far too fun and we need to do it again soon. Also, a reminder to do my driving stuff.
Reading week, here I come!
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Final Verdict
Four for four, man I am on the hot streak the Oilers can never get on.
I am "taking a break" from writing my english essay. The topic for my essay is "How do authors use family relationships to illustrate difficulties with identity?" I thought the theme for this time's essay would be a breeze; then I thought, "oh, that is only true if I don't have to use literature." I am having severe difficulties in concentrating on this essay that is due friday; I am pretty awesome at distracting myself, don't you think?
I may be rushing things a bit too much, but I have been thinking about this for a while now. I have unofficially concluded that I will not be returning to the University of Alberta in September. Where will I be then? I don't know just yet. My plan is to prepare for bible college. How I will go about preparing, I do not know yet. As of right now, I only have a set direction with no means of transportation to get to that destination just yet. I will see what I come up with in my research of different bible colleges and which ones may suit my needs the best, then I will go from there. I will definitely need to be working since the costs are so gigantic; I also want to stay as close to home as possible. Any help will be greatly appreciated. I plan on starting to ask around starting reading week to see what it is like in different places.
Right now, based on the tiny information that I do have, I think the most likely option I have for September is to work for a term or two, depending on a few things; it could be until December, or it could be until next September. Now, remember that this is based on the little that I know. I am going to make an attempt to ask around for some advice to see what should happen. It is still February and early, but time goes by way too fast to say that it is "early" anymore.
Okay, I am really sorry but my entire thought just got interrupted by some pretty awesome news.
I'M GOING TO THE OILERS GAME TONIGHT!
PEACE OUT E-TOWN
I am "taking a break" from writing my english essay. The topic for my essay is "How do authors use family relationships to illustrate difficulties with identity?" I thought the theme for this time's essay would be a breeze; then I thought, "oh, that is only true if I don't have to use literature." I am having severe difficulties in concentrating on this essay that is due friday; I am pretty awesome at distracting myself, don't you think?
I may be rushing things a bit too much, but I have been thinking about this for a while now. I have unofficially concluded that I will not be returning to the University of Alberta in September. Where will I be then? I don't know just yet. My plan is to prepare for bible college. How I will go about preparing, I do not know yet. As of right now, I only have a set direction with no means of transportation to get to that destination just yet. I will see what I come up with in my research of different bible colleges and which ones may suit my needs the best, then I will go from there. I will definitely need to be working since the costs are so gigantic; I also want to stay as close to home as possible. Any help will be greatly appreciated. I plan on starting to ask around starting reading week to see what it is like in different places.
Right now, based on the tiny information that I do have, I think the most likely option I have for September is to work for a term or two, depending on a few things; it could be until December, or it could be until next September. Now, remember that this is based on the little that I know. I am going to make an attempt to ask around for some advice to see what should happen. It is still February and early, but time goes by way too fast to say that it is "early" anymore.
Okay, I am really sorry but my entire thought just got interrupted by some pretty awesome news.
I'M GOING TO THE OILERS GAME TONIGHT!
PEACE OUT E-TOWN
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Vindicated
Three posts in three days, I'm on a roll here.
What happens when you've been vindicated? You would think that there would be quite the satisfaction and relief since being vindicated means that a situation has been cleared up from, maybe, suspicion or being unsure of something. Less than 24 hours ago, I received confirmation on something that has been bothering me for pretty much this past half year or so.
I think one of the hardest things to do in life is to be able to know what God's calls are. Knowing is just one thing, finding out the reason why is at a whole different level. For someone like me, young and inexperienced, I hesitate most of the time when I feel that I am being called to something. Most of the time when I am presented with a situation, I am unsure of whether it is just me that I'm totally whacked up or that it really is God telling me something. I was very unhappy with myself for a while for being so weak and faithless because I knew that God calls people to things, and the calls may be unexpected or something, but I had a worry in me that said, "what if this is really God's call, and I am just being completely oblivious to it?" My thoughts either ended along the lines of that, or that I just tell myself that I am being stupid and, in a sense, selfish for thinking such things.
But, I think I've come to realize that every detailed thought is put into your head for a reason. So the easiest way to begin hearing what God has to say would be from within yourself. Then the assurance comes from confirmations from the outside world. I have been contemplating for such a long time that it has began to drive me mad, especially since I am going nowhere with school.
However, as of yesterday, I now know where I need to go, and being vindicated(I love using this word), I can hold my own and go my own way. The next step is to plan it out and see where I can go from there.
Thank you.
What happens when you've been vindicated? You would think that there would be quite the satisfaction and relief since being vindicated means that a situation has been cleared up from, maybe, suspicion or being unsure of something. Less than 24 hours ago, I received confirmation on something that has been bothering me for pretty much this past half year or so.
I think one of the hardest things to do in life is to be able to know what God's calls are. Knowing is just one thing, finding out the reason why is at a whole different level. For someone like me, young and inexperienced, I hesitate most of the time when I feel that I am being called to something. Most of the time when I am presented with a situation, I am unsure of whether it is just me that I'm totally whacked up or that it really is God telling me something. I was very unhappy with myself for a while for being so weak and faithless because I knew that God calls people to things, and the calls may be unexpected or something, but I had a worry in me that said, "what if this is really God's call, and I am just being completely oblivious to it?" My thoughts either ended along the lines of that, or that I just tell myself that I am being stupid and, in a sense, selfish for thinking such things.
But, I think I've come to realize that every detailed thought is put into your head for a reason. So the easiest way to begin hearing what God has to say would be from within yourself. Then the assurance comes from confirmations from the outside world. I have been contemplating for such a long time that it has began to drive me mad, especially since I am going nowhere with school.
However, as of yesterday, I now know where I need to go, and being vindicated(I love using this word), I can hold my own and go my own way. The next step is to plan it out and see where I can go from there.
Thank you.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Impatient
I cannot WAIT to get my stupid music 156 midterm over with and have my reading week.
That is all.
If you interpreted that as somewhat angry, you've got it right (=
That is all.
If you interpreted that as somewhat angry, you've got it right (=
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Welcome to the Freak Show
Most of my body is, to an extent, a little sore. That is the result of a lot of fun. I am now a day over the age of 18, and other than my bumps and bruises, I feel no different. It's only been a day, so whatever, it'll come.
But thanks to everyone for the surprise party, that was a surprise. I was not ready for it, hence the messed up hair, dirty face, ugly clothes, etc. But I had a good time and it's been a while since I had a birthday party, so I cannot complain.
Hockey afterwards was a load of fun too. I hope everyone had atleast as much fun as I did. Despite the beating our out of shape bodies take, I think it is worth it to be able to have some fellowship with brothers and sisters from other misses and misters. I look forward to our next hockey game because, let's face it, we need the physical activity. Hopefully, we can set up one within the next month, because it seems a lot of you would love to do it again, and that just makes me really happy.
Thanks for a real sweet birthday, big G.
GTDSS: The Side Project.
Start date: February 7, 2009
Note: To be worn while my Jims get time off, for now.
Anticipated finish date: July 2010, or later.
But thanks to everyone for the surprise party, that was a surprise. I was not ready for it, hence the messed up hair, dirty face, ugly clothes, etc. But I had a good time and it's been a while since I had a birthday party, so I cannot complain.
Hockey afterwards was a load of fun too. I hope everyone had atleast as much fun as I did. Despite the beating our out of shape bodies take, I think it is worth it to be able to have some fellowship with brothers and sisters from other misses and misters. I look forward to our next hockey game because, let's face it, we need the physical activity. Hopefully, we can set up one within the next month, because it seems a lot of you would love to do it again, and that just makes me really happy.
Thanks for a real sweet birthday, big G.
GTDSS: The Side Project.
Start date: February 7, 2009
Note: To be worn while my Jims get time off, for now.
Anticipated finish date: July 2010, or later.
Friday, February 6, 2009
Mission: Accomplished
I made a personal goal when I was about to turn 17 exactly one year ago. This goal was a rather big task for me, given that I had tried previously and failed. It wasn't a front running goal where it was constantly on my mind or something that, if I didn't reach, would be a bad thing. You might be wondering what my goal is, but I'm going to try to keep you guessing by telling about the entire process of it.
I never really took this "goal" seriously and it was not an official goal where I sat down and wrote it out on a contract. This goal was just something that I constantly had in the back of my head thinking that I would be able to get it done. While most of the year of 2008 passed, I had forgotten about it for the majority of the year. It came across my mind multiple times but I quickly put it aside because I didn't feel that I could do it. The main reason that I couldn't do it properly is because maybe I tried too hard and overdid it a bit. Another reason was that I could not find a method to capture inspiration. Whenever the inspiration came, I felt it but I wasn't able to find a way to record it so that I could refer to it when I needed it. So after a few tries, I sort of just gave up for the summer.
By the time winter came along, I was reminded of this goal and this time I was determined to be able to find a way around these obstacles that prevented me from being able to accomplish my goal. I tried a different approach this time and things started to seem like it was gonna work out. Then afterwards, I spent much of my time in school seperating myself for a while to try to do this, and I had things work out for me for the first time. I got home later that day, but the outcome wasn't exactly what I wanted. I continued to try for a few more days and I finally thought I had something good going.
Then, all of a sudden, during an afternoon at home, I sat down and spent two hours and I finished my first ever song. Watching many interviews of my favorite artists, they say that the best songs they write often come in one single moments and the song only takes a few minutes to write up. It is usually the real simple concepts that may or may not hold deep meanings that end up being the more successful songs. Earlier when I said that I had tried too hard to write a song but couldn't do it, it was because I purposely had the intent to write a song about a certain topic trying to fill out a certain rhythm, etc. That obviously didn't work. So this song that I finished is about the story of a boy and his first experiences of certain aspects of life. I don't want to write out everything about the song because it's not a final product yet. There are still minor changes to the music part of the song to make it sound a bit better.
Perhaps when I am completely satisfied with it, I'll let some people hear it and get some feedback. In all honesty, I do not like listening to myself singing in my recordings because I don't like my voice very much, but whatever, I'm stuck with it so I might as well live with it. If you're dying to listen to it, I have recorded a rough idea that I originally had that I can send you. The sample sounds enough like the final thing, but it doesn't have some of the things that could be in the final song.
Well, now that my goal was to write a song, you might be wondering why I made such a big deal out of it since I have my whole life to write one. My goal was to write my first song before I turned 18. Today is February 6, one day before I turn 18 and I finished my song yesterday. All of the work put into this song was over the last 4 days. I honestly cannot believe I finished it.
Hopefully, I can write some actual songs that hold more of a true meaning to my life so people can relate to it more, then they might like the song a bit better.
By the time I wake up tomorrow, I will no longer be a child... it is a sad day, indeed.
I never really took this "goal" seriously and it was not an official goal where I sat down and wrote it out on a contract. This goal was just something that I constantly had in the back of my head thinking that I would be able to get it done. While most of the year of 2008 passed, I had forgotten about it for the majority of the year. It came across my mind multiple times but I quickly put it aside because I didn't feel that I could do it. The main reason that I couldn't do it properly is because maybe I tried too hard and overdid it a bit. Another reason was that I could not find a method to capture inspiration. Whenever the inspiration came, I felt it but I wasn't able to find a way to record it so that I could refer to it when I needed it. So after a few tries, I sort of just gave up for the summer.
By the time winter came along, I was reminded of this goal and this time I was determined to be able to find a way around these obstacles that prevented me from being able to accomplish my goal. I tried a different approach this time and things started to seem like it was gonna work out. Then afterwards, I spent much of my time in school seperating myself for a while to try to do this, and I had things work out for me for the first time. I got home later that day, but the outcome wasn't exactly what I wanted. I continued to try for a few more days and I finally thought I had something good going.
Then, all of a sudden, during an afternoon at home, I sat down and spent two hours and I finished my first ever song. Watching many interviews of my favorite artists, they say that the best songs they write often come in one single moments and the song only takes a few minutes to write up. It is usually the real simple concepts that may or may not hold deep meanings that end up being the more successful songs. Earlier when I said that I had tried too hard to write a song but couldn't do it, it was because I purposely had the intent to write a song about a certain topic trying to fill out a certain rhythm, etc. That obviously didn't work. So this song that I finished is about the story of a boy and his first experiences of certain aspects of life. I don't want to write out everything about the song because it's not a final product yet. There are still minor changes to the music part of the song to make it sound a bit better.
Perhaps when I am completely satisfied with it, I'll let some people hear it and get some feedback. In all honesty, I do not like listening to myself singing in my recordings because I don't like my voice very much, but whatever, I'm stuck with it so I might as well live with it. If you're dying to listen to it, I have recorded a rough idea that I originally had that I can send you. The sample sounds enough like the final thing, but it doesn't have some of the things that could be in the final song.
Well, now that my goal was to write a song, you might be wondering why I made such a big deal out of it since I have my whole life to write one. My goal was to write my first song before I turned 18. Today is February 6, one day before I turn 18 and I finished my song yesterday. All of the work put into this song was over the last 4 days. I honestly cannot believe I finished it.
Hopefully, I can write some actual songs that hold more of a true meaning to my life so people can relate to it more, then they might like the song a bit better.
By the time I wake up tomorrow, I will no longer be a child... it is a sad day, indeed.
Monday, February 2, 2009
Sticks and Kicks
First of all, I want to say that if you do not own an iPod touch, save up money and go buy one. I have been having so much fun playing with it since I bought it a few days ago. Seriously, you will not be disappointed, at least not the first week or so. This toy that I have bought is my anti-boredom tool, haha.
Anyways, February began and if I remember correctly, this month passes by so fast based on the past. My birthday comes and goes, then next thing you know it's March. Things to look forward to during February, reading week.. that's about it; exams, ew.
Well, this saturday we are finally playing hockey again! One unexpected thing though is that this event got a little bigger than I originally anticipated. I intended for approximately 20 people to be playing, but now all of a sudden I think we have upwards of 25, oops. Oh well, I guess it will be more fun and less tiring. We haven't played hockey in over a year, so I am really looking forward to getting some exercise again (lol <_<). If I remember correctly, I only scored 3 goals the last time we played. By my standards and past games, that is actually a pretty horrible production. I think my highest, done a few years ago, was 10 goals and 5 or so assists. I had a few games where I scored between 5 and 7, but that's about it. I hope being forced to use plastic sticks won't slow my production this time. I think the only reason why I score so many is because I am generally closer to my physical peak than most of others who are playing. This is not saying that I am more fit, because it is very obvious that I am anything but fit right now. It's just that I am (at this time of age) closer to the age where physically, you have the highest potential, mixed in with your mental ability - a.k.a sixth sense. If you're a creeper from the beginning, you might have come across me mentioning inheriting some sort of a sixth sense ability. This is not nearly at the level of professional athletes, but I do have it to some degree. On top of that, it feels like I have an ability to learn things fast, so this coupled with my sixth sense can come in handy. Based on what I see, and watching other people play, I can learn the way people move around and their tendencies, allowing me to be able to almost predict plays. So, because of this, I can position myself so it becomes easy for the ball or puck to come to me.
Okay. Generally, I don't really talk much about my athletic sense because I've lost a big chunk of my athletic ability due to inactivity. But reading what I just wrote kind of sounds like I am boasting, haha. I am not trying to brag, but instead state something I possess, so please don't interpret it as like "ooh I have this, you don't, I'm better than you." Anyways, really looking forward to playing hockey.
I am in desperate need of some new shoes. For those who don't know, I have flat feet and I need some sort of arch support on my shoes. If I don't have the arch support, which I haven't had in many years now, it is very bad for my back. Your feet support your entire body and with the amount of pressure that gets put on your spine for every step you take, having that support that your feet can step comfortably without having to "flatten" out every step is so important. Not having the support for my arches over the past years has given me bad backs everytime I get home. Ouch. So tomorrow hopefully I can find some shoes with arch support. =D
There you have it: sticks and kicks.
Time to get murdured by my upcoming midterms.
Anyways, February began and if I remember correctly, this month passes by so fast based on the past. My birthday comes and goes, then next thing you know it's March. Things to look forward to during February, reading week.. that's about it; exams, ew.
Well, this saturday we are finally playing hockey again! One unexpected thing though is that this event got a little bigger than I originally anticipated. I intended for approximately 20 people to be playing, but now all of a sudden I think we have upwards of 25, oops. Oh well, I guess it will be more fun and less tiring. We haven't played hockey in over a year, so I am really looking forward to getting some exercise again (lol <_<). If I remember correctly, I only scored 3 goals the last time we played. By my standards and past games, that is actually a pretty horrible production. I think my highest, done a few years ago, was 10 goals and 5 or so assists. I had a few games where I scored between 5 and 7, but that's about it. I hope being forced to use plastic sticks won't slow my production this time. I think the only reason why I score so many is because I am generally closer to my physical peak than most of others who are playing. This is not saying that I am more fit, because it is very obvious that I am anything but fit right now. It's just that I am (at this time of age) closer to the age where physically, you have the highest potential, mixed in with your mental ability - a.k.a sixth sense. If you're a creeper from the beginning, you might have come across me mentioning inheriting some sort of a sixth sense ability. This is not nearly at the level of professional athletes, but I do have it to some degree. On top of that, it feels like I have an ability to learn things fast, so this coupled with my sixth sense can come in handy. Based on what I see, and watching other people play, I can learn the way people move around and their tendencies, allowing me to be able to almost predict plays. So, because of this, I can position myself so it becomes easy for the ball or puck to come to me.
Okay. Generally, I don't really talk much about my athletic sense because I've lost a big chunk of my athletic ability due to inactivity. But reading what I just wrote kind of sounds like I am boasting, haha. I am not trying to brag, but instead state something I possess, so please don't interpret it as like "ooh I have this, you don't, I'm better than you." Anyways, really looking forward to playing hockey.
I am in desperate need of some new shoes. For those who don't know, I have flat feet and I need some sort of arch support on my shoes. If I don't have the arch support, which I haven't had in many years now, it is very bad for my back. Your feet support your entire body and with the amount of pressure that gets put on your spine for every step you take, having that support that your feet can step comfortably without having to "flatten" out every step is so important. Not having the support for my arches over the past years has given me bad backs everytime I get home. Ouch. So tomorrow hopefully I can find some shoes with arch support. =D
There you have it: sticks and kicks.
Time to get murdured by my upcoming midterms.
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