Caught In the Middle

Okay, here is what happened.

I found the church that I wanted to do my practicum at. I was actually pretty excited to get to see what that church is like. Everything was working out pretty well, albeit a little late. After I came home, things became quiet for a week or two, so I wanted to see what was going on with the situation.

After waiting a week for an email, I am told that the site is no good for me, meaning I have to find a different place to work at. Obviously, I was in a state of shock. I had no idea why things sudden turned around because it was going so well.

So after doing my best to not sound utterly disappointed, I got my answers. The pastor at the church has decided to leave for a different ministry in Edmonton. Since I first started talking to them about this, nothing was finalized yet, so it is understandable that he had to go about things as normally as he would because it wasn't for sure that he'd take that opportunity. But now that he has, I just happened to be the unfortunate one that got caught in between. It even caught my field education director off guard. So, I'm quite a bit unhappy with what played out; but it's reality, so I have to suck it up and move on.

This puts me back on square one with having to call up churches to see what they're about. Except it's tougher this time around because a) I'm in Edmonton, so any attempts to visit/meet the church is tough; and b) it's well into the summer, meaning the churches know I've taken too long to find a church even if I explain the situation. And let's face it, most of us would much rather be doing other things than have to worry about schooling during my time off.

Now, not only do I have to look for a job, I have to look for another church. Admittedly, it's going to take me a while to get over this one. I probably shouldn't, but I'm going to remember this and see what happens in this church that made God keep me away from it. But I guess it isn't entirely uncalled for because I keep tabs on most things that I come across. Based on my experience, I'd hate to be someone that acts like I know next to nothing about you after not having seen/talk to you over a period of time, even if we've shared some good experiences in the past. If we've shared experiences in the past, I will remember it; and my relationship starts out exactly where it left off. I don't know if that even makes sense, but I've come to know a few of these type of people that treat you like you didn't mean a whole lot to them before by the way they talk to you in more present times - and it's quite irritating the way they can talk to someone like they have no memory of them. Anyways, I am getting a bit off topic. The point is I don't want to be like that. Every relationship I have is special and unique in its own way, and I would never treat a person like a total stranger if they aren't. So, that is why I keep tabs on people/things.

So, yeah. I will need to drag my lazy butt off the couch and phone up a couple churches to explain my situation and hope that one of them will take me in. Such a nuisance. When all is said and done, I will be happier. Haha.