It is currently 9:10pm, on a Wednesday night. The day was a really chilly one, and chilly is not good. Whenever Spring decides to arrive, that'd be cool. On to other things, since I began blogging, I believe it was done on my HP laptop that my dad bought me for university. If I remember right, all my blogging was done on that computer. So now, I will introduce you to my MacBook Pro. That's right, I bought it. And in, what is now, the third day of owning this bad boy, I love just about everything it is and does. So, I decided to write my first blog entry on this guy tonight. Partly because I need to shut everything down and vent, I am now sitting on my bed, with just my laptop and lamp turned on.
Well, where do I even begin? I think I will just flat out say that 2011 has sucked. I think I could attest to many people with that too. This year has not been very good for me, and it's just into the third month. I think the world could possibly be ending a year too soon (see what I did there?). Anyways, I am kind of wondering who is with me on saying that this year has not been good. I can think of at least a few people off the top of my head.
My winter term didn't start out well; and up to this point, I haven't "recovered". I used the word recovered because I feel like I've taken a huge step back in terms of my work ethic and just everything in general. I'm not reading, not doing homework, not studying like I did in the fall term. I'm too far behind, and things only get tougher from here on out. To add on top of all this school stuff, I'm not enjoying my living environment very much either. (Look, Nathan just threw out another grenade) I now have a good idea of what might be best for me next year, in terms of living, but it's not exactly what I want; it's just what I think is best.
Things outside of school and the whole Calgary experience isn't exactly the best either. Aside from my MacBook Pro, I can't really think of many times in the last couple months where I was joyful for an extended amount of time. I think it's just my overall self being dragged down by the tragedies that have gone on. The passing of a distant relative was the closest I've ever experienced in regards to my immediate family. And I feel like I'm still slightly affected by it - by the whole fragility of life. It's so easy, when a couple things don't go your way, to allow your entirety to be affected. Evidently, this is the entire nature of sin. Sin doesn't only affect certain aspects or compartments of our lives; it affects life in its entirety. It sucks.
Also, I was told that I received my first ticket today. After being so blessed to have a car down here, I immediately get a ticket. It's seeming like a big ticket too. So there goes another chunk of money. As of right now, I don't know the specifics of the ticket because I'm not in possession of it. In fact, I am rather confused because given the specifics I have, it makes no sense as to why I've been ticketed.
I don't think I'm the only one that is kind of wishing that this term would just end already. Anyways, I have long thought about how to deal with these low points in life. Funny, because I believe I also predicted that I would be headed in this direction in a previous blog post. Probably the biggest thing is knowing where to find the strength to make it out with minimal damage. When I think about it, it's really simple; but pulling it off is the reason for why we go through these experiences. Of course, you look to the source of all life. I think strength comes in the form of trust and prayer. Believe me, it can be tough to have the faith to know God's going to pull through. But I think we can still be comforted in knowing that hope is not lost, and that there is a greater purpose behind why everything is happening. When I think about that, I'm usually at ease. Praying is also so vital, especially in numbers - self-explanatory. I think I've said this many times: if anyone ever has prayer requests or just wants to talk, I'm always open. I don't guarantee that I can help or do anything, because I'm actually not very good at it; but I'm always willing to pray for you.
Probably not exactly the type of post my dad was looking for, but I tried. Haha. At least I mentioned strength a couple times. Anyways, close to bed time as I have to embark on transit journeys again, starting tomorrow.
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