Plateau

I wanted to blog so badly the last couple days, but I kept forgetting. Seeing as I haven't blogged in a week, I'll do that now.

This week, so far, has been a pretty decent week. It hasn't been great; but it is not so bad either. Amazing how the weather can make everything so much better. It's been above 0 degrees this week, and already I'm seeing tank tops and mini skirts. Haha.

School has been slow. Chapel yesterday was really great, and just what I needed too. It feels great that I can finally attend the chapels this term since I have classes before and after. It just seems that I've been serving so much, I've almost forgotten what it's like to just be a member in the congregation and not have to do anything, rather just worship the way I do and absorb everything in. Other than chapel though, I am struggling to get going with school work. Lucky that January is a lighter month without too much that needs to be done. But I am not getting into the groove that I should've been in two weeks ago. The reason is probably that I'm still hungover from Christmas break. I don't think I realized it right away, but that Christmas break was one of the most refreshing times I've had in a few years. Yes, even with the snow, it was refreshing. Half of my classes are really interesting because they're my type of class. The other two are just flat out boring as balls. All it is, is regurgitation of information on and on. Whereas the other two actually allow me to think about this whole Christian thing - which is what I like; nothing is concrete, but at the same time there is so much depth in the truth.

Anyways, through all the rollercoasters in life, I feel like I've hit a bit of a standstill with my spiritual life. I may have mentioned "mountain top" experiences in my other blog (if I didn't, I'm probably going crazy then), and how we can't always be living up there because it is windy, cold and unstable. I have to give my Spiritual Life, Calling and Purpose's professor credit for that awesome analogy. If you want to read more, just click on my Tumblr blog link. In the short few weeks of this term, I've also learned that we don't really grow new characteristics and that kind of stuff. As each day, we unfold these findings about who we are as we trek along our lives. Which makes sense, because ultimately, we are to be like Jesus; so more and more, we just uncover how to be like Jesus.

All that "you should consider Bible college and be a pastor" stuff that God told me was such a revelation, that I was just skyrocketing in my climb up towards a mountain. And now that I'm here, with a term under my belt, I've had some time to really soak it all in. Whenever we get to these "highest points", we can't really see the path going down. We always try to take a peak over the cliff to see how scary or how far down the fall is, but you're still unsure. That is kind of where I'm at right now. I'm at the peak, it feels great. But I'm approaching the edge where the top is coming to an end.

I know that the path down is unpredictable. I could fall really fast, or it could be a slow and steady decline. Either way, I know that as I get more of this doctrinal and knowledge stuff into my mind, I'm going to get challenged on each and every one of them. Who knows, that might be the lowest point in the valley that is to come. If I make it out alive, I'll be stronger than I am now. Or, all hell could break loose and I get completely GG'd by this whole thing. Either way, I'm excited. The process of getting to this plateau was really fun, and I look forward to the next one. Or heck, it might even be possible that I go up to another level that I didn't think I would have. Who knows.

Whatever the result, this is why I wake up every morning.