I made a personal goal when I was about to turn 17 exactly one year ago. This goal was a rather big task for me, given that I had tried previously and failed. It wasn't a front running goal where it was constantly on my mind or something that, if I didn't reach, would be a bad thing. You might be wondering what my goal is, but I'm going to try to keep you guessing by telling about the entire process of it.
I never really took this "goal" seriously and it was not an official goal where I sat down and wrote it out on a contract. This goal was just something that I constantly had in the back of my head thinking that I would be able to get it done. While most of the year of 2008 passed, I had forgotten about it for the majority of the year. It came across my mind multiple times but I quickly put it aside because I didn't feel that I could do it. The main reason that I couldn't do it properly is because maybe I tried too hard and overdid it a bit. Another reason was that I could not find a method to capture inspiration. Whenever the inspiration came, I felt it but I wasn't able to find a way to record it so that I could refer to it when I needed it. So after a few tries, I sort of just gave up for the summer.
By the time winter came along, I was reminded of this goal and this time I was determined to be able to find a way around these obstacles that prevented me from being able to accomplish my goal. I tried a different approach this time and things started to seem like it was gonna work out. Then afterwards, I spent much of my time in school seperating myself for a while to try to do this, and I had things work out for me for the first time. I got home later that day, but the outcome wasn't exactly what I wanted. I continued to try for a few more days and I finally thought I had something good going.
Then, all of a sudden, during an afternoon at home, I sat down and spent two hours and I finished my first ever song. Watching many interviews of my favorite artists, they say that the best songs they write often come in one single moments and the song only takes a few minutes to write up. It is usually the real simple concepts that may or may not hold deep meanings that end up being the more successful songs. Earlier when I said that I had tried too hard to write a song but couldn't do it, it was because I purposely had the intent to write a song about a certain topic trying to fill out a certain rhythm, etc. That obviously didn't work. So this song that I finished is about the story of a boy and his first experiences of certain aspects of life. I don't want to write out everything about the song because it's not a final product yet. There are still minor changes to the music part of the song to make it sound a bit better.
Perhaps when I am completely satisfied with it, I'll let some people hear it and get some feedback. In all honesty, I do not like listening to myself singing in my recordings because I don't like my voice very much, but whatever, I'm stuck with it so I might as well live with it. If you're dying to listen to it, I have recorded a rough idea that I originally had that I can send you. The sample sounds enough like the final thing, but it doesn't have some of the things that could be in the final song.
Well, now that my goal was to write a song, you might be wondering why I made such a big deal out of it since I have my whole life to write one. My goal was to write my first song before I turned 18. Today is February 6, one day before I turn 18 and I finished my song yesterday. All of the work put into this song was over the last 4 days. I honestly cannot believe I finished it.
Hopefully, I can write some actual songs that hold more of a true meaning to my life so people can relate to it more, then they might like the song a bit better.
By the time I wake up tomorrow, I will no longer be a child... it is a sad day, indeed.
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