12:01 a.m., January 1, 2009
The clock just struck midnight a minute ago and as I sit here watching the fireworks from the comfort of my couch at home, I am reminded of how God makes everything glorious. There is nothing short of spectacular that our God has made even when it seems like there is. Sometimes we have to search for the magnificant, and others they come right to us like right now. It amazes me at how we can see God's glory through something as simple as fireworks. He gave us the resources and mind power to be able to invent something so beautiful to your eyes that it just blows my mind away.
Now that the year 2009 has begun, there is an awful lot to think about. When reflecting on this past year of 2008, depending on what kind of person you are, it could be either a brutal failure, or a learning experience. 2008 was full of events and perhaps my biggest year in terms of growth that isn't physical. I think I'm done most of my physical growing but I wouldn't mind pushing for another inch or two. I normally look on the good side of things but it became somewhat difficult due to a rough finish to the year, but for this post, I will try to stay away from all the negativity. Now let's try to dig into my memory bank and try to pull out a few moments of this past year that might have been memorable for me or anyone else.
It all started in January, the time of year where everyone is looking forward to a new year, much like right now: how everyone has a list of resolutions of which to only be broken within a month - and knowing it too. The year of 2008 could not have began worse for me as I had just began coming out of the roughest time in my life just a couple months beforehand. However, things only went uphill for me as I began one amazing adventure of my life through 366 days, hurray for leap years. On the topic of leap years, I feel bad for kids who are born on February 29th.
By the time February hit, I had already seen a couple of pleasant surprises. One of which I finished my second 30 level course with an 80%. Early on in February, I was to be able to meet a school average for the fourth or fifth time in order to get my guitar. The first saturday of February, not only did I pass my learners exam, but shortly after my worship practice, my dad hauled me out to buy my guitar. I was so shocked at why he took me out because I hadn't even receieved my report card yet. It was later on that day that I first met my beautiful ESP EC-1000 Deluxe ASB. However, I was slightly worried after I bought my guitar, that what if I didn't get the average I was supposed to get, what would happen to my guitar then? But I was one happy guy as after I celebrated my 17th birthday, I also received the average that my dad set for me to get the guitar. I now am proud to say it was a great experience gone through to earn my first guitar. That's right, I have been playing for guitar for what is now my fourth year and never owned a guitar until now.
Skip right ahead to April, with an honorable mention to seeing some friends getting baptised in March being a great sight. One particular event in April, I believe, set me off on a rapid growth spiritually: leading worship for the very first time at the Youth In Christ conference at ECCC. I think I had been leading worship more or less for about a year before this event, but nothing I have ever lead can compare to what I experienced that night. Leading worship for me had always been a fun musical experience kind of thing, I have to say, because it allowed me to do what I love with some friends and to worship God. That night of leading worship opened a whole new door for me. I can still see myself standing on that stage like it happened yesterday, with about 200-300 young teens like me with a burning desire to worship God. I matured so much spiritually that night that I think if Ps. Joe had not asked me to lead worship, I will not be who I am today. As for any more details, I will have to refer you to searching for my facebook blog about that magnificant night.
Right up until June, I felt myself growing stronger as a person after falling almost to rock bottom just over half a year ago. My marks were improving, which was an awesome thing to see, I would be graduating from grade school, etc. June was quite the month for me as I had to prepare myself, not only for my diplomas, but to embark on another amazing adventure with an internship in Vancouver. There were a couple of personal issues that I also managed to work out miraculously by itself. This allowed me to be able to remain friends with certain friends without having other things get in the way, and the feeling is awfully refreshing. Writing my diplomas is a blur to me now as I'm writing this because I do not recall whatsoever the process of writing one. I remember writing a couple of IB exams but not my diplomas - weird. So I zoomed by all my diplomas, and after my final diploma, I went straight home, packed up and left for the airport to go to Vancouver for the summer. I could not say goodbye to very many people and I am disappointed about that because I value the people I care about more than I do myself. It was a very tough day for me, because on top of being stressed from my diploma, I had to say goodbye to my family, which is something I have never had to do before.
July and August was one heck of a summer, the second most definitive of the year for me. Most of you know, I was busy in Vancouver doing an internship with UrbanPromise. I met some really awesome people and had some significant knowledge and experience gained. I know a lot of people would like to know what I did for the eight weeks or whatever, but I would like to place the stress, not on what I was doing, but what I learned. I am going to try to keep this as brief as I can because the scroll bar is getting smaller and smaller from the length of this entry. What I gained most from this experience are two things: attitude and love. On the note of attitude, I can say too much but I'm going to keep it to this phrase: don't worry, be happy and every little thing is gonna be alright. With the topic of love, this is specific to God's love. Explaining this in summary would not help too much because I will need examples and stuff. Even doing so, it takes one's own experience to be able to understand fully what I am saying. All I can say is that God's love is neverending, indescribable, uncomparable, infinite, and most of all breathtaking. Why breathtaking? Because once you understand the feeling, you come to realize SO much from one simple aspect, that it is like being winded by something and then your reaction is almost literally like "HOLY CRAP." This is all I will say about the summer of '08.
September was a huge leap into nothingness for me. Starting university is a pretty big step for anyone that has their future set in sight. I, being blind, just went along with everyone and stuck myself into a spot in university as well. I don't want to get angry with this topic, but if you are reading this and you are applying into university without any real direction or goals but is doing it just because it seems like the right thing to do, please recheck yourself. University, although a great experience on the bigger life, is not absolutely necessary for people. It's just that it has become like a standard of this world for people to be able to have a university education to be able to succeed. If you feel you have a path in university, go ahead and get into it. If you're not sure and hesitant, don't force yourself in right away. I personally think it is better to take some time off to do some searching instead of wasting a semester or two taking useless courses and wasting money. Please trust me on this one.
The time between September and December didn't have anything that stuck out too much for me because I spent a lot of time thinking and searching and just contemplating in general. After graduating from high school, you see your life really open up and you are forced to step up to the plate or else you are going to fall behind and end up having to play catch up, which is not the best thing to do. The university experience has been treating me okay so far, but my resistance toward it does not allow me to experience it to the fullest. Novembers and Decembers have not been good months for me for the past few years. I always seem to hit some kind of a low during these periods of time. I guess, in a sense, this complements the stat of December being the month with the highest suicide or death rate. However, even through low times, I refuse to give myself in to the world because I truly believe I am strong enough to fight out of it because God has done amazing things in my life and I wake up each day thanking God for all that I have. Each person lives their own life, their own path and encounters their own struggles. That is why if some of you think that your struggles have been far more painful than mine, I would like to politely disagree. On a universal scale, a LOT of people live a harder life than I do. However, because of the way God runs things, each person is given their own personal challenges and they go through them in whatever way God has planned. Lows will be lows and highs will be highs. God does not give us more than we can handle which is why in a ratio stand point, the degree of things are much the same in all of us.
I think I will conclude it here for my year in review, and I am having a hard time of deciding whether I should put all my 2009 thoughts here or on a seperate entry.
Okay I will put 2009 on a different entry because this post is much too long, and it is a slightly different topic. So I hope everyone enjoyed a meaningful year and gained more than they lost, experienced the magnificance of God, and much more. Remember to love yourself, love people, and most importantly love God because He first loved us.
Live high.
1:16 a.m., January 1, 2009
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Sense of Responsibility
Just need to get rid of some steam..
What good is it to have something you are so passionate about, the burning desire to share it with others so could be enlightened, just to have it completely ignored? I've been doing some thinking last night and this morning and when you look at a church, specifically a congregation, you generally see someone at the top as a leader which is usually a pastor. It is a pastor's job to inform us of the way God wants us to live our lives. A pastor's job is perhaps one of the most difficult in the world because of continuous attacks from not just Satan but people who "don't like your style". It drives me fricken nuts to be a part of a group that fails to live up to what a follower of Jesus is supposed to. Of course no one can live the perfect life that Jesus lived, but we're obviously supposed to strive towards something like that the best we can. We fail, a lot, but it's because of God's love that we can get up each time we fall to try again. When you see a pastor trying so hard to spark the rest of the church into living a better life, just to see and be part of the ignorance that comes after is so frustrating. Time and time again, we're reminded that church is not to only be done on fridays or sundays but every moment of our lives, and time and time again, we go out into our lives, and KNOWING that we should try to live good Christian lives, but choose not to do so. I will be the first to admit that my secular life compared to my church life isn't exactly of the same life. My do believe that my church life is dominant over my secular life but I have to be able to get the "church" aspect over into the secular life to be able to live even fuller of what God wants. When a pastor works so hard trying to reach to a congregation that chooses to ignore for the most part, who's fault is it that we are so weak and faithless? Church is something to be excited about because we get to practice the privilege that we have to be able to worship God freely, but instead all that I see is the appearance of apathetic people who could be much happier being elsewhere. There is almost no evidence of the sense of responsibility that comes with being a follower of Christ and it doens't even seem like it's about to change. The effort does not seem to be there at all when it comes to walking the talk. What good is it to be inspired by someone or something but to ignore it. I'm sure that if we want to accomplish something bad enough, we will take the initiative to go and achieve it, but where is that same want when on the topic of living a Christian life? Okay, fine, sometimes we may have a little streak of living some good days or weeks doing good for God, but a few weeks out of a lifetime is next to nothing. To see someone have to take the fall for something that they intently worked towards is the worst one you can take. Just think about it. You're working so hard to achieve something, to send inspiration, to enlighten people with the knowledge you're blessed with, just to be ignored and ultimately have to take the fall because the people chose not to take on your inspiration and live it up. It's not fair. It's not fair for someone to have to take the fall for something he has no control over. It instills the sense of failure that no one likes to experience. I know, I've been there myself. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore, that's how angry I am with, I guess mainly myself. But who the hell am I to say anything when I am to blame for someone else's fall?
What good is it to have something you are so passionate about, the burning desire to share it with others so could be enlightened, just to have it completely ignored? I've been doing some thinking last night and this morning and when you look at a church, specifically a congregation, you generally see someone at the top as a leader which is usually a pastor. It is a pastor's job to inform us of the way God wants us to live our lives. A pastor's job is perhaps one of the most difficult in the world because of continuous attacks from not just Satan but people who "don't like your style". It drives me fricken nuts to be a part of a group that fails to live up to what a follower of Jesus is supposed to. Of course no one can live the perfect life that Jesus lived, but we're obviously supposed to strive towards something like that the best we can. We fail, a lot, but it's because of God's love that we can get up each time we fall to try again. When you see a pastor trying so hard to spark the rest of the church into living a better life, just to see and be part of the ignorance that comes after is so frustrating. Time and time again, we're reminded that church is not to only be done on fridays or sundays but every moment of our lives, and time and time again, we go out into our lives, and KNOWING that we should try to live good Christian lives, but choose not to do so. I will be the first to admit that my secular life compared to my church life isn't exactly of the same life. My do believe that my church life is dominant over my secular life but I have to be able to get the "church" aspect over into the secular life to be able to live even fuller of what God wants. When a pastor works so hard trying to reach to a congregation that chooses to ignore for the most part, who's fault is it that we are so weak and faithless? Church is something to be excited about because we get to practice the privilege that we have to be able to worship God freely, but instead all that I see is the appearance of apathetic people who could be much happier being elsewhere. There is almost no evidence of the sense of responsibility that comes with being a follower of Christ and it doens't even seem like it's about to change. The effort does not seem to be there at all when it comes to walking the talk. What good is it to be inspired by someone or something but to ignore it. I'm sure that if we want to accomplish something bad enough, we will take the initiative to go and achieve it, but where is that same want when on the topic of living a Christian life? Okay, fine, sometimes we may have a little streak of living some good days or weeks doing good for God, but a few weeks out of a lifetime is next to nothing. To see someone have to take the fall for something that they intently worked towards is the worst one you can take. Just think about it. You're working so hard to achieve something, to send inspiration, to enlighten people with the knowledge you're blessed with, just to be ignored and ultimately have to take the fall because the people chose not to take on your inspiration and live it up. It's not fair. It's not fair for someone to have to take the fall for something he has no control over. It instills the sense of failure that no one likes to experience. I know, I've been there myself. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore, that's how angry I am with, I guess mainly myself. But who the hell am I to say anything when I am to blame for someone else's fall?
Saturday, December 27, 2008
Livin' It Up - 'Naked and Personal'
So yesterday I went out, and under some peer pressue, bought myself a pair of Nudie jeans. It was on sale and cost me 150 bucks instead of 200, so I guess it was somewhat of a fair deal. Incase you're reading this and don't know what Nudies are, they're a brand of jeans that are raw and dry denim. This just means you wear 'em for 6-12 months without washing so the colors fade out nicely and mold to your own skin becoming like a second skin layer.
I'm not entirely the biggest freak about jeans but I figured that since I had to buy myself a pair of jeans because it was jeans galore yesterday, I might as well give this a try. So now I've got to live up to not washing my jeans for atleast six months.. Hopefully I don't fail (= Honestly, I don't know if I can get to six months because I like things clean. So if I stop at two or three months, I can atleast say I tried, but wasted 150 dollars on this experiment. I've worn it for one day and I've already seen the denim rub off on certain places in the house.. Hehe, oops =D I've seen a very light shade of blue on the chair I sit in during hockey games, and most obvious of all, it gets on my fingers ><
So umm, let's see where this heads in the next half a year or so..
Start date: December 26, 2008
I'm not entirely the biggest freak about jeans but I figured that since I had to buy myself a pair of jeans because it was jeans galore yesterday, I might as well give this a try. So now I've got to live up to not washing my jeans for atleast six months.. Hopefully I don't fail (= Honestly, I don't know if I can get to six months because I like things clean. So if I stop at two or three months, I can atleast say I tried, but wasted 150 dollars on this experiment. I've worn it for one day and I've already seen the denim rub off on certain places in the house.. Hehe, oops =D I've seen a very light shade of blue on the chair I sit in during hockey games, and most obvious of all, it gets on my fingers ><
So umm, let's see where this heads in the next half a year or so..
Start date: December 26, 2008
Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Devil's Advocate
This "job" is so freakin' fun. I know it's not a good thing to be like paparazzi and going around snooping at things, but when they happen right before you, and you're a loser like I am, you can't ignore it. Life is full of drama and events and all that kind of stuff. And what I like to do is kind of be like the person watching the movie or reading the book and try to play things out in my head and seeing which actually happens.
I. Am. Such. A. Noob. But I love it, the amount of speculation and possibilities is just too fun to not care about.
I. Am. Such. A. Noob. But I love it, the amount of speculation and possibilities is just too fun to not care about.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
The Slam
I just finished watching the second Chronicles of Narnia movie entitled Prince Caspian. I missed this movie when it came out with a bunch of other ones a while back and I regret not watching it in the theatres. One reason is that a movie of this calibre doesn't deserve to be watched on a tiny 29' in my rather large bonus room. Another is that C. S. Lewis is just loaded with great messages in his writings. It's been a pretty eventful weekend for me and capping it off with a great movie was really refreshing.
I am extremely tired right now so I probably will say a couple of weird things without wanting to. I have a couple of thoughts on the movie though. First and foremost, the ending because it is still fresh, that scene where Susan kisses Caspian was completely unnecessary and stuck out like a sore thumb. I don't even think it happened in the book, but I could be wrong because Prince Caspian was one of the books I did not read in the series. But overall, I think it was a really good movie. C.S Lewis continues to amaze me with the amount of hidden messages that are in his pieces of work. All that I came across kind of reinforces what I've been thinking about lately with the advent weeks of Christmas as well, so I will try to briefly list them out because I've captured them in my mind and is escaping me.
A little bit before this "4 weeks of advent" began, I started thinking something when I was trying to sleep. Hope is a word that has been completely butchered by our society and has nearly completely lost its meaning. I was laying in my bed and I was thinking about alot of stuff, which I will not mention. And then all of a sudden, a thought came to my mind that I could not believe I had just thought. I was pretty shocked at what it was because when I thought about what I had just thought(sounds weird), I looked at the word "hope" in a way that I have never before. Then all of a sudden, oddly enough, we come to the week of "hope" during the 4 weeks of advent and I get reminded of what real hope means. It's when you have absolutely nothing left, and you are hoping that tomorrow may bring some sort of happiness to your life, to be able to get by the day with enough to eat, or a place to sleep, etc. Of course what I thought about wasn't about enough to eat or to sleep, it was on a different scale but I still think it can be related to the same degree. We get "hope" mixed up so often with "wish" that it really doesn't mean a big difference between someone saying "I hope I can get by tomorrow without being hurt" or "I hope I can have a 8 oz. steak tomorrow".
Again, I don't like people to have to worry about me because it's not worth it. But no one reads this anyway, so it's all good =D But after watching Prince Caspian, a very refreshing assurance gave me some peace in knowing that God is all powerful and as long as we keep seeking Him, things WILL be okay and tomorrow will be a better day. Like Aslan said a couple times, things never happen twice the exact same way. This phrase also is good because it helps you realize that just because God came through once a certain way, does not mean he'll do it the second time exactly the same way. Why? Because if God keeps coming to save our butts everytime we end up at the same spot, we'll never learn and we will never learn to go seek God like Lucy did. You must have faith to cross the bridge where you find Christ so you can see Him face to face.
I don't know, the messages that mister C.S Lewis has in his stories is just too much for a tired and sleepy boy like me right now. There is so much I could write on but I cannot put it into words right now so it will have to wait.
Destination Known - I Will Go
I am extremely tired right now so I probably will say a couple of weird things without wanting to. I have a couple of thoughts on the movie though. First and foremost, the ending because it is still fresh, that scene where Susan kisses Caspian was completely unnecessary and stuck out like a sore thumb. I don't even think it happened in the book, but I could be wrong because Prince Caspian was one of the books I did not read in the series. But overall, I think it was a really good movie. C.S Lewis continues to amaze me with the amount of hidden messages that are in his pieces of work. All that I came across kind of reinforces what I've been thinking about lately with the advent weeks of Christmas as well, so I will try to briefly list them out because I've captured them in my mind and is escaping me.
A little bit before this "4 weeks of advent" began, I started thinking something when I was trying to sleep. Hope is a word that has been completely butchered by our society and has nearly completely lost its meaning. I was laying in my bed and I was thinking about alot of stuff, which I will not mention. And then all of a sudden, a thought came to my mind that I could not believe I had just thought. I was pretty shocked at what it was because when I thought about what I had just thought(sounds weird), I looked at the word "hope" in a way that I have never before. Then all of a sudden, oddly enough, we come to the week of "hope" during the 4 weeks of advent and I get reminded of what real hope means. It's when you have absolutely nothing left, and you are hoping that tomorrow may bring some sort of happiness to your life, to be able to get by the day with enough to eat, or a place to sleep, etc. Of course what I thought about wasn't about enough to eat or to sleep, it was on a different scale but I still think it can be related to the same degree. We get "hope" mixed up so often with "wish" that it really doesn't mean a big difference between someone saying "I hope I can get by tomorrow without being hurt" or "I hope I can have a 8 oz. steak tomorrow".
Again, I don't like people to have to worry about me because it's not worth it. But no one reads this anyway, so it's all good =D But after watching Prince Caspian, a very refreshing assurance gave me some peace in knowing that God is all powerful and as long as we keep seeking Him, things WILL be okay and tomorrow will be a better day. Like Aslan said a couple times, things never happen twice the exact same way. This phrase also is good because it helps you realize that just because God came through once a certain way, does not mean he'll do it the second time exactly the same way. Why? Because if God keeps coming to save our butts everytime we end up at the same spot, we'll never learn and we will never learn to go seek God like Lucy did. You must have faith to cross the bridge where you find Christ so you can see Him face to face.
I don't know, the messages that mister C.S Lewis has in his stories is just too much for a tired and sleepy boy like me right now. There is so much I could write on but I cannot put it into words right now so it will have to wait.
Destination Known - I Will Go
Thursday, December 18, 2008
The Aftermath
I officially finished my first semester of post-secondary education yesterday. The amount of relief was incredible, not because I was exhausted from studying or anything, but because it's finally over. Looking back at the first semester, in a lot of ways, it can be deemed a failure of a semester but I don't like to see things that way. It was definitely a good learning experience for me to know what it's like being in university. In the past, I was able to get by without studying much at all, but now 90% of it comes from effort, so if you don't do your daily reviews and stuff, you're screwed, simple as that. I believe that's pretty common sense and obvious right? It is for me, but actually doing it isn't as easy as it may seem for a lot of people that have been doing it for years. I don't have the work ethic or motivation necessary to be able to do it, which makes my biggest weakness. It's a challenge for me to get up off my ass and open a textbook or binder and study my crap. And even when I do get to the point where I open up my books, staying focused is the next problem that I have because I get bored and distracted very easily; school not being a very high interest just adds to that. Then my efficiency of studying comes into play. Even if I somehow stay focused, I'm very inefficient at studying because of the lack of consistancy of studying over the years.
All in all, I've screwed myself over.
I became one of the many who went to university for the sake of going to university. It's a parent's dream to have their kids go into university and receive a degree in something that they love doing and end up with a good stable career somewhere down the road. So because everyone else is doing it, I did it too, and ultimately I went in blind. Going into university for the sole purpose of going in is pretty stupid if you ask me. I am applied for a BA in music major, but is that what I really want to do? Some might think so because I love music so much, but no, studying music is not even close to what I want to do for a career. Even if it was, I wouldn't know what kind of job I'd end up having with a music major. My take on music is another discussion so I won't say much more.
My first impressions of university were not too bad. I liked watching everyone scramble all over the place, people chillin and so proud that now they're living the 'big life', etc. But what about me? I am only here because this is where the crowd is. I went into university with a purpose of trying to find my passions so I can decide what I might want to pursue. I also figured that because I'm a year younger than most people, it'd be okay to use my first year to my advantage to find what I want. However, as the year progresses, I'm starting to think more and more that this year is making absolutely no progress in terms of finding my direction. Ultimately, this year could not be a bigger waste. I would make more progress in life if I took a year off and went to work or find something else to do instead of just going through the motions of a university life.
University is definitely what people say it is, but is it absolutely necessary? For a person like me, I don't think so, but that is because I have no direction in life. I wasted a semester taking courses that I don't even like, and yet I can't find anything decent enough to replace it. If this is not a semester gone to waste, I don't know what is. And it's not like I can say that I did well in this semester either. Calling grades like Cs and Ds progress is like watching the Toronto Maple Leafs game after game saying they're a good team and getting better.
But then again, who the hell should listen to what I have to say. For a majority of the people, university is the right direction to head because they already have their sights set on something achievable. Someone like me who's just wandering aimlessly shouldn't even have their opinion taken into account by anyone. I just hope that there's a hidden path somewhere out there that someone like me can find because I cannot possibly see myself doing another 3 years and a semester of this university business. Things take time and rushing it sometimes only make it worse. I will leave things here for now because I want to enjoy this Christmas...
OneRepublic - Stop and Stare
All in all, I've screwed myself over.
I became one of the many who went to university for the sake of going to university. It's a parent's dream to have their kids go into university and receive a degree in something that they love doing and end up with a good stable career somewhere down the road. So because everyone else is doing it, I did it too, and ultimately I went in blind. Going into university for the sole purpose of going in is pretty stupid if you ask me. I am applied for a BA in music major, but is that what I really want to do? Some might think so because I love music so much, but no, studying music is not even close to what I want to do for a career. Even if it was, I wouldn't know what kind of job I'd end up having with a music major. My take on music is another discussion so I won't say much more.
My first impressions of university were not too bad. I liked watching everyone scramble all over the place, people chillin and so proud that now they're living the 'big life', etc. But what about me? I am only here because this is where the crowd is. I went into university with a purpose of trying to find my passions so I can decide what I might want to pursue. I also figured that because I'm a year younger than most people, it'd be okay to use my first year to my advantage to find what I want. However, as the year progresses, I'm starting to think more and more that this year is making absolutely no progress in terms of finding my direction. Ultimately, this year could not be a bigger waste. I would make more progress in life if I took a year off and went to work or find something else to do instead of just going through the motions of a university life.
University is definitely what people say it is, but is it absolutely necessary? For a person like me, I don't think so, but that is because I have no direction in life. I wasted a semester taking courses that I don't even like, and yet I can't find anything decent enough to replace it. If this is not a semester gone to waste, I don't know what is. And it's not like I can say that I did well in this semester either. Calling grades like Cs and Ds progress is like watching the Toronto Maple Leafs game after game saying they're a good team and getting better.
But then again, who the hell should listen to what I have to say. For a majority of the people, university is the right direction to head because they already have their sights set on something achievable. Someone like me who's just wandering aimlessly shouldn't even have their opinion taken into account by anyone. I just hope that there's a hidden path somewhere out there that someone like me can find because I cannot possibly see myself doing another 3 years and a semester of this university business. Things take time and rushing it sometimes only make it worse. I will leave things here for now because I want to enjoy this Christmas...
OneRepublic - Stop and Stare
Monday, December 15, 2008
Halfway Home
You would think that me not having anything written for over a week would be because I'm studying for exams. Har har har, that is so not true. Exams are intimidating. I am done three exams and two left so I am almost there. I should be studying now but guess what? I choose to blog instead! Anyways..
This past weekend was a very relaxing weekend. I haven't felt such satisfaction in a weekends rest in a very long time. Saturday was lots of fun and business.. busyness.. how do you spell busy-ness? Our english congregation christmas celebration was loads of fun. Good food, good people, good performances, it was a lot of fun to be apart of. Sunday was cool too. For some reason, I think I might have been drunk or something because I have almost no memory of leading worship other than clapping. Weird. But other than that, I do think that I was pretty happy with our worship because it was pretty good all around. I admit that I should've picked either saturday or sunday to put some studying time into, but I chose neither. This just means I will have to be studying even more today and tomorrow. Oh well.
There is only 10 days left till Christmas! Two days until I am done my first term of university!
This past weekend was a very relaxing weekend. I haven't felt such satisfaction in a weekends rest in a very long time. Saturday was lots of fun and business.. busyness.. how do you spell busy-ness? Our english congregation christmas celebration was loads of fun. Good food, good people, good performances, it was a lot of fun to be apart of. Sunday was cool too. For some reason, I think I might have been drunk or something because I have almost no memory of leading worship other than clapping. Weird. But other than that, I do think that I was pretty happy with our worship because it was pretty good all around. I admit that I should've picked either saturday or sunday to put some studying time into, but I chose neither. This just means I will have to be studying even more today and tomorrow. Oh well.
There is only 10 days left till Christmas! Two days until I am done my first term of university!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Fever
All the hype that is brought up when Christmas season approaches is insane! I'm reading the papers, watching the tele, on the intraweb, etc., it's all over the place! The media and the world definitely does a good job bringing attention and excitement for this holiday season. This is causing me an incredible increase in heart rate because I am looking forward and backwards into my memory bank with all the good times I've had and all the fun I've experienced during the holiday season: skiing, presents, friends, etc. Another reason for the increased heart rate is the lack of studying it's causing me! Here I go all excited about so many things and all that jazz, it just gives me absolutely no motivation to study, gay. I'm in holiday mode already =D
Also, I've just got a new number for anyone that cares.. Let me know if you want to know it, because I don't want to put it here and have like a million people try to sell me stuff =D
Happy Holidays!
Also, I've just got a new number for anyone that cares.. Let me know if you want to know it, because I don't want to put it here and have like a million people try to sell me stuff =D
Happy Holidays!
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
One Moment
"If you had one shot, one oppurtunity, to seize everything you ever wanted in one moment, would you capture it? Or just let it slip? -Eminem (Lose Yourself)
I feel that it's really important that you be able to recognize what inspiration is and when it is there. Since we only live each moment once, we have to be able to recognize oppurtunities and any inspiration that comes our way. Being able to recognize inspiration is the first step. The second step is to be able to capture the moment. It's something I'm not very good at. Inspiration comes at me left and right and I always let it slip by failing to find a useful way to capture the oppurtunity. It probably doesn't mean all that much but realizing that you only experience each second once, this makes every encounter unique. You don't get to live it again so if you let oppurtunities and inspirations pass by without being captured, it sometimes sucks because there are times when you find yourself looking back to a time when you felt a certain way or thought certain things, but you can't remember.
So if you can recognize inspiration, and be able to capture it, it will lead to many awesome things. Take advantage of what you can because if you dont, it's only to your disadvantage in the long run.
I feel that it's really important that you be able to recognize what inspiration is and when it is there. Since we only live each moment once, we have to be able to recognize oppurtunities and any inspiration that comes our way. Being able to recognize inspiration is the first step. The second step is to be able to capture the moment. It's something I'm not very good at. Inspiration comes at me left and right and I always let it slip by failing to find a useful way to capture the oppurtunity. It probably doesn't mean all that much but realizing that you only experience each second once, this makes every encounter unique. You don't get to live it again so if you let oppurtunities and inspirations pass by without being captured, it sometimes sucks because there are times when you find yourself looking back to a time when you felt a certain way or thought certain things, but you can't remember.
So if you can recognize inspiration, and be able to capture it, it will lead to many awesome things. Take advantage of what you can because if you dont, it's only to your disadvantage in the long run.
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